I was wrong....

I sometimes have to admit.. when I'm wrong... I tend to trust people.. sometimes blindly..   and unfortunately sometimes I get hurt doing that.  I have several "friends" online.  ....or people I thought were friends.. that I could trust.   ...but it seems as though one of my "friends" chose to inflict pain on another person... and even though I said that it wasn't my business, and I disapproved.. I chose to try to remain neutral.  But I that was when I thought my friend made a mistake.. and then stopped... but she didn't.. and still continues to do destructive things.... after she told me that she was done with it... so I've lost my faith and trust in her.  It's sad to have to find out these things... I don't give friendship... TRUE friendship very easily.. and it takes a lot to cause it to go away... but I chose to give every benefit of the doubt..  instead of believing the one person I will continue to trust with all that I am.. and now I am certain to pay the price.   The thing is.. if my "friend" was truly my friend.. she would realize what consequences come from being purposely destructive.  I can no longer sit by and try to remain "neutral" when I know what she is doing is wrong.. I even told her.. and was willing to overlook a "mistake"  ..but still she persists... and she has broken my trust by spreading something about the one person I do care about...  There's no coming back from that.   Finally.. I must stand for something.. what I believe in.. and it's not my former friend.... I can't trust her.. and won't.. it's sad.. honestly.. but she's evidently lost a bit of who she is.. and isn't the same person I befriended a year or so ago.. I know she always says she tells it like it is.. but I can't support that.. there are some things you have to keep your yap shut about... and she didn't.   I'm done with her. 

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