I Am Ready.
There seems to be something cleansing about a summer thunderstorm... it's a sticky hot day.. then all of a sudden boom.. thunder.. lightning.. rain.. a short time later... cool breeze.. all the stickiness is washed away. I'm a fan of thunderstorms.. and unless the wind gets very high.. I could sit and listen to them all day long. I sleep much better during storms.. and wish I had grabbed a nap when the one went through here only a short time ago.
I got a call today from a friend/acquaintance... she's sorta between .. I was a bit surprised, because no one usually calls me anymore unless they need something.. or need my advice.. or just need to vent. Turns out she was trying to call her mom.. and hit my name by mistake.. she was just as surprised to hear my voice as I was to see where she was calling... we talked for about 30 seconds.. then she went along her merry way. That seems to be most of where my life is now... I feel a bit like an afterthought... so I try not to intrude into other people's lives anymore unless I'm specifically invited. Does that sound like I'm trying to get on board the pity train?? ...I hope not.. because I'm not really all that concerned about it. I still like who I am... and where my life is.. even if there could always be improvements. I enjoy some time to myself from time to time... and even though I might like to share time with someone, I'm not really at a place in my life where I have a whole lot to offer. ...and I've always said that in order to be in a successful relationship.. both people have to bring positivity to the table.. I'm a positive enough person.. most of the time.. but I am at a point where I need to focus on myself more than anyone else.. and getting my life to be a bit more stable. I let my guard down and was contacted by someone at one of the dating sites... really didn't think that much about it... but it turned out to be a troll.. just like I suspected.. so yeah.. I have a somewhat cynical view of people now... and so far it's been justified. I am okay if someone can change that attitude, but the more I see.. the hard it is going to be for me to overcome it.
I'm still trying to work out how I'm going to move.. provided my inspection Thursday goes well. After that there's the appraisal.. I'm spent so much effort getting boxes and paperwork ready for this.. that I haven't really started much in the way of packing. I guess I should wait and see if this place gets through these two major hurdles first. Still there's several things I won't need for the next few months... so it wouldn't hurt to store them away. I do know that with the crappy places I've seen for soooo much money... if this place doesn't appraise, I might as well give up on finding anything for awhile... it's by far the best deal for the money I've run across. Right now I'm just playing the waiting game.. just like with most other aspects of time life... But I'm certain a change is coming... and I am ready.
I got a call today from a friend/acquaintance... she's sorta between .. I was a bit surprised, because no one usually calls me anymore unless they need something.. or need my advice.. or just need to vent. Turns out she was trying to call her mom.. and hit my name by mistake.. she was just as surprised to hear my voice as I was to see where she was calling... we talked for about 30 seconds.. then she went along her merry way. That seems to be most of where my life is now... I feel a bit like an afterthought... so I try not to intrude into other people's lives anymore unless I'm specifically invited. Does that sound like I'm trying to get on board the pity train?? ...I hope not.. because I'm not really all that concerned about it. I still like who I am... and where my life is.. even if there could always be improvements. I enjoy some time to myself from time to time... and even though I might like to share time with someone, I'm not really at a place in my life where I have a whole lot to offer. ...and I've always said that in order to be in a successful relationship.. both people have to bring positivity to the table.. I'm a positive enough person.. most of the time.. but I am at a point where I need to focus on myself more than anyone else.. and getting my life to be a bit more stable. I let my guard down and was contacted by someone at one of the dating sites... really didn't think that much about it... but it turned out to be a troll.. just like I suspected.. so yeah.. I have a somewhat cynical view of people now... and so far it's been justified. I am okay if someone can change that attitude, but the more I see.. the hard it is going to be for me to overcome it.
I'm still trying to work out how I'm going to move.. provided my inspection Thursday goes well. After that there's the appraisal.. I'm spent so much effort getting boxes and paperwork ready for this.. that I haven't really started much in the way of packing. I guess I should wait and see if this place gets through these two major hurdles first. Still there's several things I won't need for the next few months... so it wouldn't hurt to store them away. I do know that with the crappy places I've seen for soooo much money... if this place doesn't appraise, I might as well give up on finding anything for awhile... it's by far the best deal for the money I've run across. Right now I'm just playing the waiting game.. just like with most other aspects of time life... But I'm certain a change is coming... and I am ready.
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