It's Just Too Real.

So.. I got all emotional yesterday... and I shouldn't have. I guess it only bothers me when I feel that the way I feel is called into question.. Other people have their side too.. and I should learn to keep my mouth shut in open forums... at least when it involves other people.  That doesn't mean that I don't feel the way I have.. or that I've changed my outlook.. it just means that maybe there was a bit of disrespect in that post that shouldn't have been there.. and that I need to learn to keep things on a flirty level.. at least as far as the sites are concerned.  I was afraid that might happen... I really don't want to start a lot of drama.. in fact, I went out of my way for awhile to try to be completely open in my treatment of everyone in the same manner.. until I was rebuked and told basically to "fuck off" Still I can respect that... Everyone has the right not to be subjected to conditions where they feel uncomfortable.. My rights end where another's rights begin.. I've always said that about anyone's rights and privileges. At times I think maybe it was a mistake to go back online.. I do get my satisfaction of being able to banter and flirt... but sometimes people can't let go of the past.. sure... not talking about it is a step to letting go.. but as long as it dictates our behavior and emotions.. we really haven't let go of anything.. we hold on to it inside and let it rot a part of who we are.  That's one reason I have this blog... so that I can dig out all those feelings and air them.. by doing so I hope to be able to confront issues and be able to deal with them... and finally get over it... It's difficult to do that when the negative issues keep surfacing after I feel I'm trying to deal with them in a positive manner. I can't and don't want to control other people.. but at the same time... I feel like others are trying to control me at times... it goes back to not infringing on their rights.. Sometimes that's a fine line. I guess I need to try to be more generic in my posts.. making certain that they don't reflect a negative portrayal of any one.. or two people. Sometimes when people get emotional.. they say things they don't mean... I suppose sometimes.. It's just too real.