The Possibilities Still Exist.

Hanging about for another weekend alone... I'm thankful I have Netflix, Amazon Prime, and my Firestick... I jailbroke it and now I don't even have to go out to the movie theaters... I watched Baby Driver last night... it was decent, but I get irritated at movies that try to play themselves off as being somewhat realistic.. then go completely off the cuff into unrealistic zones.  If I'm going to watch fantasy... let it be fantasy... I'm not really into realism anyway.... realistic is boring for the most part.  I think that's part of the reason our society is the way it is... people have realism so hyped up to be much more than it is... In all reality, life is pretty boring.. at least until someone decides to make something stupid happen that ends up putting other people at risk. I'm not saying life can't be fun... enjoyable.. but I enjoy the pretty tame things.. travelling, kayaking, camping... it can still have some action to it.  I think that all the crappy things are sensationalized and then people think they're on some higher plane of existence where they can live out all their fantasies.  It's nice to dream... and to live comfortably.. but a person needs to know what is real...and what is fake.  I've given up expectations of having an abnormally adventurous life, because I've figured it out... something unique has to happen in order to live that way... or you suffer the consequences.  I have a stable job... I can provide for my daughters.. a have a few acquaintances I can do things with on sparse occasions... other than that... nothing is really all that adventurous. We see the best part of other people's lives and think we want that... that our life needs to be more glamorous.. but then we get frustrated when we find out there are darker parts to obtaining that life.. that there are many obstacles and consequences that we have to give up.

I have to give myself a swift kick in the derriere at times... to get a little motivation going. It really doesn't seem worth it for me alone... but then I realize if I don't move on with my life.. and actually try to start living it some... then I'm going to sink deeper and deeper into a funk where I really don't want to be. I keep delving out advice that I don't take myself... If you want to be happy... you have to take notice of the little things that we take for granted every day. There's so much happening on a small scale that we don't take it all in.. we're looking for something grand to happen and while we are looking to the future... we don't see all the simple niceties that life has to offer us. I am still trying to avoid the negativity, but am not doing such a good job of it most of the time. I am hopeful that a few things in my life are going to change for the better... more money at work.. even if it is overtime.. I will have a house all my own... probably.  There's still all this doubt that creeps in.. but I can live with that. The possibilities still exist. 

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