I Refuse To Become My Dad.

Dad is trying to convince me to contact my sisters... as no one in either household will respond to either of his two phones now... he is worrying them to death... he stays on the phone about 60 percent of the time... either dialing or leaving messages... I told him no... I wouldn't be a party to his paranoia... and if they wanted to talk with him... they'd leave him a message... in the short time it has taken me to type this... I've heard his phone open and close several dozen times... he really has a problem... and I'm not going to feed it... He's come up with every excuse he could think of why he needs to talk to them..... but he can't come up with a reasonable one...  "Their phones don't always work and they don't always get the message."  "They were supposed to put the trash out for me last night, and I just needed to make sure they did"   First of all... he.. if they hadn't...what are you going to do about it now?? ...secondly... do you not trust them to take care of a menial task such as setting out your garbage?

So.. this was last night... I started blogging...and got called away by him and he apologized saying he didn't mean to make me mad... I told him I wasn't mad... I just get a bit irritated at irrational behavior that he displayed... so then he comes up with the "It might be just as well if I laid down and went to sleep and never woke up.. It might be better on everyone."  ...I'm not feeding into that bullshit as well.. so I said nothing... and he looked like I hurt him by not coming to his defense... that's when I realized that maybe I inadvertently seek pity and don't realize it... and maybe I'm not so much different than him... but I'm working on that... I have a lot to be thankful for.... and I'm lucky that things are as they are... I refuse to become my dad.

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