Sometimes, That's All It Takes.

Do you ever wonder why there is always so much to do?  I think that we tend to have more and more things put on us until we find our breaking point... at least that is what it seems like. Sometimes it is just best to say "No... I can't do that" ...but then that would be admitting our limits.. and that someone has reached them. We like to think that we can do almost anything... or at least do much more than people expect. No one likes to be reminded of their limitations, but we all have them. I am painfully aware of several of mine... but I am learning to be more and more comfortable with them..

Dad is still here... I don't know when he is leaving... and I'm thankful he's still alive... but it would be nice if he could be alive somewhere else for awhile. I haven't even masturbated for nearly 3 weeks now... which is quite a bit of time for me... The strange thing is I'm missing it less and less... the sexual feeling.... it was once something that stayed on my mind most of the time.... now... not so much.  I don't really want to admit it, but I suppose sex isn't all that important... I'm certain it is probably as nice as I remember it though..  I will just say... it's been awhile.

I start training on Sunday... I will be driving down on Saturday... So I will get to take Friday off. I am positive dad will leave by then... We haven't been out a whole lot, but we've been out more than I expected to be.. I am in the process of developing a budget... it was somewhat difficult as I didn't have a clue as to what the utility bills were... still, I'm learning how to curtail some of my spending habits.. I am thinking I should be okay with all of the bills... I'm just a little concerned with Christmas and birthdays coming up... but I should be able to work something out there too..

Dad is giving Fox News a break while I'm around... I gave him the ultimatum... if he has Fox News on... I won't be in the room with him... so he still does occasionally.. but most of it is while I am working... or sleeping.. I'm starting to get tired of Pawn Stars though...

It is a Monday.... a 4 day week for me... which I'm looking forward to.. I am not certain what all is in store for me... but when am I ever?  ...I'm hoping for change... but am pretty happy with the direction things are going.. I'm learning to be much more content with just me... I've taken a step back and re-evaluated a few things... sometimes, that's all it takes. 

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