I Should Let It Stay There

I think I might have figured out what all the hubbub is about.. I think I said I was lied to.. but in that sense, I think that this person was lying to herself as well... I've been guilty of that as well.. as I've said in a few of my posts... I have been guilty of lying when I let myself believe something that maybe I hadn't discovered at that point.. I am pretty sure we all have... it doesn't make it hurt any less when the lie is unintentional.. but it makes it much easier to forgive and get over it. That's what I've tried to do.. I'll be the first to admit I've made more than my share of mistakes... and I've discovered much more about myself in the past 10 years or so than I ever realized I'd know. I've done a few things I'm not proud of... I've said things in the wake of a tide of emotions that I should never had said.  If someone can make me that upset... then a person has managed to touch the deepest parts of my heart.. and with that.. they take a major piece of it with them when they leave. I've learned to be guarded... but I can live like that. It's not really the fault of anyone in particular.. as I was the one who let things happen. I was the one who climbed down out of my tower and let some breech my defenses... I still remember when I think about it... but there really isn't any reason to dwell on the past. It is in the past.. I should let it stay there. 

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