Not As They Were.

It looks like I'm Vegas bound again... heading there on August 5th and coming back on the 9th.. it's for work.. I am attending the CompTIA partner summit and that's the main focus of my job.... even with all the other duties I've been performing. I am hoping it all goes well.. and it's not like I have much else to do around here.. my roommate says she'll miss me, but I think things will be patched up again with her guy by then and she'll find a way to keep busy.... at least I hope so.

I sent my ex some money for another vehicle... she drove into a flooded area because she couldn't see and totaled her vehicle. My daughter needs to be chauffeured for the moment.. as soon as I get my vehicle paid off.. I'm going to give it to her and get another one... should be another year or so.. I hold nothing against my ex... it just didn't work out... evidently she doesn't hold anything against me either... or so it seems. I really hope she finds someone that makes her happy.. if that's what she wants.  I'm afraid she isn't moving on because she thinks I might be back. ...I don't do that though... doors close and I let them stay closed... but I still hope we can be friends.. I'd help her out if at all possible.... as I would anyone I could.  I went out a couple of times with a girl... and she was irritated because my ex and I got along.. that's a huge red flag in my book. You can't change the past.. to hold on to hate because of it.. would be hurting me more than anything... so I let it go.. I refuse to let someone make me something I'm not.. or to cause me to be someone I don't want to be.  ...but that person has a right to believe what she wants to believe.  I feel like people have to either accept me as I am.. or deal with it. I never want anyone in my life who doesn't want to be... and I'm always prepared for the moment that someone will leave my life.  It's not like I'm throwing anyone out of my circle of friends.. it's just that they have to deal with things as they are.. not as they were. 

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