Trying To Figure It Out.

I'm finding this to be a better outlet than I thought... I guess I've sorta missed blogging.  It's not like there are many avenues for me to get my thoughts out there other than the couple of sites I have been back on.. and even then, I have to censor myself so I don't inadvertently start drama. But I can appreciate the opportunity to speak my mind about things... if people don't like it... they can deal with it in whatever way they choose.. I try to work most things out by myself, but occasionally I share with a friend or two some of the things that weigh heavily on me. I'm actually not sure I trust anyone to not share that though... as it's difficult to keep things private sometimes.  I really don't have all that many secrets... and to be perfectly honest.. I don't care what secrets of mine get out as long as someone doesn't get hurt.. but that rarely seems to be the case. I suppose I should try to keep myself in my positive frame of mind.  It might help in the long run to avoid the negativity and negative people who keep popping into my life. I won't apologize for being myself... and I don't really know how to apologize for someone else's interpretations of my actions. I can only be me. I don't seem to really have a direction I'm going with this, it just seems to be what's on my mind. I find that if I start typing and just let loose with whatever happens to be on my mind, then I get things out and feel better. It's a bit better when there is a catalyst.. or back and forth interaction, but I can make do without engaging others.. especially when it becomes bitter. I have a tendency to not think about things at times, and that generally leads into problematic circumstances. I do choose how I react though... and at times it's difficult to scream WTF!!  ...but that just propagates more drama.. I've found it's much better not to engage ignorance when it invades my day. The best course of action is usually to smile.. nod.. and go on... especially when you're not exactly sure what the facts are. I have made more than my share of mistakes about what I remember and what I don't.. I'm sorta old and senile now... so it's stupid for me to hold on to frustration... anger.. or anything else that is a burden on my life. Maybe I should start heeding my own advice and move forward with my life. I'm not exactly sure what that entails at this point, but I'll work on trying to figure it out.