Without Me Looking For It

So... I've just been hit with something out of the blue.. and I can't vent on the site because that would be antagonistic.. and I really don't wanna be that guy.. but I need to let out some steam...

For some reason it's been thought that I said some nasty things about someone.. and I am not exactly certain where that's coming from. I may have been upset... and said some things that we're actually appropriate at the time, but that's been years ago.. anything I've said to other people I've pretty much said here in my blog.. actually I may have said much more in my blog, as I don't think I am not able to vent as well to other people as I can here. I am slightly irritated that someone may have been making things up about me, but at the same time, I shouldn't let it bother me what other people think. I suppose the past is really never in the past for some people. I am still trying to wrack my brain about anything I might have said that is untrue.. maybe it's because my interpretation of thing was too literal. I don't really know what's actually been said behind my back, but it seems like I've been sucked into more drama that I didn't know about. How does one handle that?  I suppose it's much easier to just forget about it and avoid certain subjects and certain people. I know that I shouldn't give merit to lies spread about me... it's going to be difficult not to think about it. I know things will always be said about people... that's the cog of life turning as it does each day. Things continue to grow and spread... and all it takes is a small spark of something said by someone for things to become completely out of control. I've always wondered who I could trust.. and as I don't know who could have exaggerated thing I might have spoken... I am no closer to figuring that out than I ever was. I trust me.. I know the truth.. I'm not even going to elaborate on what I'm talking about, because I'm not sure who all will see this.  I don't really like that though... I might be censoring myself based on what someone else might think. I believe in this case though, it would just propagate drama. ...as my life is how it is now.. that's something I seek to completely avoid. I'm sure it'll find me without me looking for it. 

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