I Don't Feel Hypocritical.

I think that most people don't have a clue about what goes on around them.. they live in their own little universe and believe what they want to believe.. that's why it's so easy for them to be deceived by others.. Most people need some sort of interaction in their life.. and they can't be honest and open during that interaction.. then they get surprised when someone calls them on it.. Don't ask me to keep secrets from other people.. I really just don't want to know.. and if you choose to keep secrets from others.. that just shows what type of person you are.  I have several things in my past that came back to bite me in the ass.. but I deserved it all.. I will admit to any and all of it.. should I spend the rest of the posts in my blog confessing all?  ...I don't plan on it.. because it has nothing to do with the present me.. the past is in the past.. and I have no reason to bring any of it up.. will I deny anything that is the truth? ..no.. I can't do that either.. otherwise I'm lying.. and then I can't be happy with who I am.  I'm not going to purposely go spreading things from my past that will hurt others.. but I cannot, in good conscience.. promote lying just for the sake of covering up the painful truth.  We all tend to try to say things to make ourselves believe one thing or another.. and if you can't be truthful with yourself who can you be truthful with?  I will try to live my life the way I keep preaching about here in my blog.. if I refuse to believe the things I say here, then why should I expect anyone else to do so.  I plan to be open as I have very little to hide.. and those things that I do hide... are best brought out into the open anyway.. I am much happier with myself when I can live this way.. I don't feel hypocritical..