All Is Well.

Sometimes we forget about everything bad in our life.... it doesn't mean it still isn't there... it's just that we have something more wonderful to focus on. We all have good and bad... and it's up to us to determine what we let control our life. There is so much that is good in the world... we just lose sight of it at times... and it can be found when we aren't even looking for it.  I'm lucky in what I've gone through hasn't pushed me past the point of breaking my belief in something positive.. I still have hope for the future even though it was buried under layers of cynicism. I let the online world do that to me.. I gave power to trivial things... things that won't matter in the long run... It is a good idea to be mindful of the negative influences.. but don't let them control your life.. don't let them determine who you are. I have the presence of mind to back away when online occurrences start causing me issues... it's that simple. I said long ago that I will stay true to who I am.. and I do my best to keep with that... I have wonderful support in my life right now... support I've never felt before... and I appreciate what I have.  I never want to lose it. I am truly happier than I've ever been.. and I see nothing but positive things in my future.

I have conflict coming from several directions.. my work.. my home.. my dad... at the moment.. I'm working to remove conflict from each...   My dad.. I can't do much about.. my home life.. it's just a step at a time that I can take to resolve the issues..  I will still continue to do so..  the same with my work... I am taking steps to get transferred... I've got many applications in and will continue to put more in. Sometimes I get little things from other directions that try to nick or chink my protective shell.. but I've become so much better at sidestepping them. I keep the sources of conflict at arms length.. It's very confusing sometimes.. but that's when I allow myself to back up and take a look at everything.. and all is well.. 

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