Use The Force!
My supervisor... the "acting" department manager... is no longer just acting.. Somehow the center has put a counselor from another department with no vocational experience whatsoever... and made this person head of that department. It makes absolutely no sense... but it's the government, what do you expect. It wouldn't be so bad if this person actually stayed in the department and supported us... but she has to get something started... and then push the responsibility over onto someone else... then starting something else... there is very little follow through.. and then she can blame someone else for it not getting done. It's very frustrating. This is the same person that gave me a mediocre review.. and I might not deserve the highest rating... but for my rating to say that I don't exceed expectations in any one area...well.. it's not accurate.. I had the 12th highest rated trade in the nation... of over 1600 trades.. I had taken on responsibilities of two other positions from time to time in addition to my own... and I had spent time trying in the community working to better the reputation of our center. So.. I'm not going to let that go. I will not forget it. Don't get me wrong... I will do my job.. and do it very well... but no extras... it won't happen.
I've increased the fervor of my search for another position elsewhere... I mean... I have been diligently looking because I have to make a change in my life... to maintain my sanity, but it has become a necessity to get out of here... just because of the state of my mental health. It has moved from a desire... to a need. I have certain things in my life that just give me warning that things must change. I believe we all have that. I believe the universe... or some force in the universe will give all of us direction... but most of us are too caught up in what we want... to listen to this force. Most everyone usually involves themselves in conflict... or their lives become ensconced in their placated situations that cause them to overlook that little voice inside that tries to direct them away from harm... or hardship. I've known some of the most stubborn people online... and at times... I've been right there with them... Still it's pride and stubbornness that will end up screwing you in the long run. Believe me... I know.. it's happened to me on many occasions.. and I'm sure it will happen to me again... when I lose focus.. when I don't pay attention... when I want to cause conflict. Sometimes people don't even realize that they are causing conflict....and sometimes people cause it.. because they no longer have a choice... it's either a small conflict.. or a large one.... This is also usually brought about because we didn't listen to our surroundings.... sometimes those warnings can come from deep inside... or even from those around us. The universe tries to take care of us.. it's just that we don't listen.. and then we're like... oh.. boo hoo... poor me.. I have it so badly. People can screw with your lives.. it's difficult to trust people... but this "force" ...it won't lie to you. The only problem is people put their own thoughts into their actions and will do things... even if they have a bit of a hinky feeling about it. If something seems slightly wrong... DON'T DO IT! ...It's that simple... If something is right... it won't give you worry... worry comes from inside of you... it's brought about by fear. Think about when you hug your child... do you feel anxious to do that? If you do... you're screwed up in the head. Now.. think about when you hug someone else... does this provide you with anxiety? If it does... you need to take a look at your relationship with this person. I had gotten to the point with my spouse that even a hug... was forced.. wasn't natural. I do have someone in my life... that a hug is the most natural thing I can feel... and it's wonderful. It's all about this unseen force in the universe. If you have drama in your life.. and you feel issues coming on... look at what actions you perform. Most people will read this and say... this doesn't apply to them... it does... you just have to be more attuned to your state of being... there's not much all that strange about any of this... it's just working with nature and the universe.. instead of against it... We don't take the time to listen anymore... we're too caught up in what we want... to listen to what we need... If you want to abolish the stress and worry from your life... Use the force!
I've increased the fervor of my search for another position elsewhere... I mean... I have been diligently looking because I have to make a change in my life... to maintain my sanity, but it has become a necessity to get out of here... just because of the state of my mental health. It has moved from a desire... to a need. I have certain things in my life that just give me warning that things must change. I believe we all have that. I believe the universe... or some force in the universe will give all of us direction... but most of us are too caught up in what we want... to listen to this force. Most everyone usually involves themselves in conflict... or their lives become ensconced in their placated situations that cause them to overlook that little voice inside that tries to direct them away from harm... or hardship. I've known some of the most stubborn people online... and at times... I've been right there with them... Still it's pride and stubbornness that will end up screwing you in the long run. Believe me... I know.. it's happened to me on many occasions.. and I'm sure it will happen to me again... when I lose focus.. when I don't pay attention... when I want to cause conflict. Sometimes people don't even realize that they are causing conflict....and sometimes people cause it.. because they no longer have a choice... it's either a small conflict.. or a large one.... This is also usually brought about because we didn't listen to our surroundings.... sometimes those warnings can come from deep inside... or even from those around us. The universe tries to take care of us.. it's just that we don't listen.. and then we're like... oh.. boo hoo... poor me.. I have it so badly. People can screw with your lives.. it's difficult to trust people... but this "force" ...it won't lie to you. The only problem is people put their own thoughts into their actions and will do things... even if they have a bit of a hinky feeling about it. If something seems slightly wrong... DON'T DO IT! ...It's that simple... If something is right... it won't give you worry... worry comes from inside of you... it's brought about by fear. Think about when you hug your child... do you feel anxious to do that? If you do... you're screwed up in the head. Now.. think about when you hug someone else... does this provide you with anxiety? If it does... you need to take a look at your relationship with this person. I had gotten to the point with my spouse that even a hug... was forced.. wasn't natural. I do have someone in my life... that a hug is the most natural thing I can feel... and it's wonderful. It's all about this unseen force in the universe. If you have drama in your life.. and you feel issues coming on... look at what actions you perform. Most people will read this and say... this doesn't apply to them... it does... you just have to be more attuned to your state of being... there's not much all that strange about any of this... it's just working with nature and the universe.. instead of against it... We don't take the time to listen anymore... we're too caught up in what we want... to listen to what we need... If you want to abolish the stress and worry from your life... Use the force!
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