We Just Need To Try.

We all live inside our minds... so it's there where we need to keep clean. Get rid of the garbage. It's the only space we have where we can always go... no one can take that from us. I try to always unburden myself of the things deep inside my mind.  In fact, that's the main reason for me starting this blog in the first place. I've had no major issues to get out for a long time now...  but all the minor things are all still there. Well.. I suppose it's what your opinion on what is major and what is minor..  To me.. it's a lot of major... but since I can live for awhile longer without change in certain situations, it's not all that major. I am looking to start with at least a semi-clean slate.. It's because of this that I am trying to avoid any and all drama.. it's just not always easy with all the crap that we subject ourselves to. Still.. we continue to live and grow...

I'm on a 3 day weekend.. actually got some movie time in. I think movies sometimes distract me from real life for awhile.. Life really isn't all that bad... and in the last 6 or 7 months... has improved exponentially.. I'm thankful for that. It's really about attitude... there is a quote I really love..



I believe this hits the nail on the head.  I want to be the best person I can be, but that is largely due to the attitude I take up. The definition of "best person" is highly subjective. What I feel might be a good person, might not hold up to other's standards.. and may surpass others... or might even not hit the mark at all on still other's.  I don't care all that much actually. I can only live to the ideas I have set forth..  I enjoy the potential of life.. there is so much to look forward to... and so many things that I see happening.  I don't close myself off to the positive aspects of life, but I try to sidestep as much of the negativity as possible. Still.. I don't ever want to be unfair to anyone... just to live my life how I want... and share it with those that want to bring good things... as I want to support those who try to remain positive.   I guess at times, I am very opinionated... I know that. I just get concerned that I will let people change me in ways I don't want to be changed... Honestly, I think most people don't plan on becoming ass hats... or at least don't see it coming.. I'm pretty sure I don't notice things I've done at times either... but I still try to hold myself accountable to my actions. There are times when I need the help of my friends.. that's why I'm careful about who I let very close... I never want anyone in my life that is afraid to tell me when I'm stepping over the line... We all need to be put in our place at times... if we can't take constructive criticism.. we needn't try at all.. because it makes no difference whether we fail or succeed at life... we just need to try. 

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