Life Doesn't Really Work Like That.

Sometimes I wonder if this is good therapy for me.. or just a reminder of the negative things I already know.  I tend to blog about a lot of the negative things in my life, hoping to get them all out of my system.... but could it be that bringing them out just shines a focus onto them?   I should start blogging more about my everyday activities instead ... but that's not really what is "under my hat" ...my thoughts... feelings.. emotions... that is what I try to blog about.  Maybe I should change the name of it.. but that really wouldn't make much sense either.

The town I live in is having a street fest today... I thought about going downtown to it.. but it's a couple miles away... and I'd have to try to find a place to park.. which would be nearly impossible.. or maybe I could walk... but then I'd be walking most of the day.. and I don't have anyone to call if I get stuck out there... Besides, I had a couple of friends offer  to meet me for dinner... so that's what I figure I'll be up to..  I need to get out a bit somewhere... my social life is somewhat non-existent. The couple is from one of the two online sites I've been frequenting... I feel pretty safe meeting them.. as I have a few times before.. I am okay with meeting people if I know there's no chance of something romantic evolving.. and since they are both friends.. I am absolutely certain that's the case. I've been avoiding too many dinners with friends... I don't want them feeling sorry for me.. and trying to fix me up.  I'm making it a point to distance myself from relationships.. I make that pretty clear on the sites so that I can't be accused of "leading someone on"  ...that doesn't mean I won't flirt... and try to be witty.  I feel like maybe I bring a smile to the face of someone.. and in return that makes me feel good. It would be nice to be able to live your life on a happy note, but life doesn't really work like that. 

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