None I Can Count On.

Today is Father's Day... I've already talked to my dad 7 times today... sent him a present... but it hasn't been just a week or so since I've seen him. My daughters texted me "Happy Father's Day" ...and that's all I heard from anyone today. Well... I did get 2 texts from friends who wished me the same... but I've spent most of my day bouncing back and forth from being online... to baking... it seems to preoccupy my mind and get me in a better mood. I posted something online that I probably shouldn't have.. but I thought.. hell.. why not? ...who or what is stopping me?  ...so I did it.  It'll come down at some point anyway. I am enjoying the mindless posting... and I've been listening to a lot of different music... at least for me.. Steampunk... I love it, actually. My new favorite band is Steam Powered Giraffe... I would actually go see them in concert, but they're not playing anywhere near me ...at least not this year. I got asked by a friend yesterday if I needed some tickets to go river tubing... I've been a few times.. but I passed this time... it's just not that fun by yourself... well.. it was okay the first time... because it was a new experience.. but I just don't have the desire to go out and wander alone. It has been a bit too hot... so I haven't actually been out of the house since my dad left last weekend... except for a few to go to the store... and a short while in the yard the other night with the neighbor's kids... I am looking forward to going back to work tomorrow... I am hoping at least after the first of July the overtime opens back up.  I would feel much better if I could just spend my time working.  I enjoy doing that... and I know what I'm doing.  ...as far as life goes, I still haven't figure it out, but I'm okay with flying by the seat of my pants for now. I have a few upcoming medical appointments... eye.. endocrinologist.. and first visit to the gastroenterologist... I've been putting off having my ass invaded for too long.. so I figure come Sept. I will probably have my colonoscopy done... if I can find someone to drive me... that's not something I'd ask just anyone... so.. I will try to figure something out.. even if I end up hanging around for hours afterward and letting the medication wear off.. It sucks not having any close friends... at least none I can count on.

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