That Isn't Happening Anytime Soon.

I enjoyed myself today... nooooo.. not in THAT way... I have begun to phase that out of my life I think... I haven't had that sort of inspiration in months really.. I joke about it on the sites.. but that's all it is.. talk.. The way I enjoyed myself was after work.. just before dark.. my neighbor's two daughters came to my door and knocked on it.. asked me if I wanted to catch lightning bugs... and I decided to drop what I was doing and go... turns out my neighbor wanted me to watch them for a bit while she went to pick up something... I appreciate that she trusts me that much with her daughters.. I know it would be difficult for me to do that with my daughters when they were that young (6 and 3 years old)  ...anyway I ended up turning it into tag and all went well... they really didn't want me to go. Maybe I'll go out again soon.

Other than that.. my life has been hiding inside from the heat.. it's been freakin' hot ... well.. hot enough anyway.  I am still on the sites... and I'm just throwing out whatever comes into my head. It's refreshing to interact with people in a manner that no one considers serious.  I've learned when you start thinking too much about things.. you become your own worst enemy. Too many times ideas of what if... and why did they do that... come into the picture... and it takes away from the enjoyment I feel to just mindlessly interact.

I haven't really heard much from many people lately.. other than an occasional text... it seems like most everyone keeps their distance from me.. online ...and in real time... but that's okay. I'm not trying to invade anyone's space. I can't be anything but me. I do get sad that people seem to hold on to drama... I wouldn't mind finding someone to share some time with... at least some degree of intimacy... but that isn't happening anytime soon. 

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