It Just Keeps Getting Worse.

It's actually cooler weather outside this morning.. below 60 even...  You ever notice that when someone doesn't have much to talk about... they will bring up something about the weather?  I mean... it's all well and good I suppose to know how to dress... but I'm dressing in the same thing every weekday.... and I don't own an umbrella anymore, so why do I care... I have a device that tells me everything I need to know.. it's called a window... There's not much I can change about it anyway.  I feel like there's so much out of my control now anyway.  But I'll still keep concentrating on the things I can control.  Tick... tock.. the clock is still ticking... and I'm still alive... so I guess that means I'm doing something right.. I'm alive, but I don't know actually how much living I'm doing...

I am cooking chili in my crockpot... it's one of my favorite things to cook.. and I'll always vary the recipe just a bit. I have habanero peppers growing on my porch.. I know I'll sort of miss my porch when I'm gone... but it'll be okay.. I have two smaller porches where I am going. I think about things before they happen sometimes... I think part of my mind lives in the future to avoid what's here.. or not here in my present.. The problem with that is sometimes I miss out on opportunities just because of my attitude. I'm certain I will be alone in my later years... and I've grown to be okay with that.. it's not like I really need anyone. I'm proving that right now. I've heard that being alone erodes your mental and emotional health.. that's very possible, but on the same token, I really don't have a whole lot of that in the first place... or maybe I do.. I don't know anymore... it's not like I really care a whole lot, because I'm not the one who has to deal with me...

Sometimes my mind just jumps from one topic to another at the blink of an eye.. I'm pretty sure I could be diagnosed ADD... I'm not all that hyper, so  I doubt there's the H in there anywhere... I believe we all have a degree of that anyway.. and it could just be a con the health companies promote to sell more drugs and procedures.. It's amazing how many years we survived without really knowing all this stuff that's bad for you... and all these things that afflicted us.. it seems as we go along.. we get more and more afflictated... (yeah, I know that's not a word, but I like using it anyway)  I'm not talking about only individuals... but society as a whole.. look at what's going on in politics.. in health.. in most aspects of the world... it just keeps getting worse. 

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  1. ReneeJuly 26, 2017 at 7:18 PM

    Hey stranger... lost track of you for a while, but I found you again. :)

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    1. SpecialKJuly 26, 2017 at 8:02 PM

      Hi... back on the sites... against my better judgement, but all is going well.. not sure if you'll see this, but not sure how else to reply.

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    2. ReneeAugust 14, 2017 at 4:43 PM

      If you have the same phone number, I'll shoot you a text. I have a new number...

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    3. SpecialKAugust 14, 2017 at 4:46 PM

      no... my number is different... but my email is the same... kmshirley@gmail.com

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