I Choose To Remain Positive

I had planned to sit here and spout out all kinds of pearls of wisdom from my mind... lay my soul out there for everyone to see... and then I realized that it doesn't matter if anyone sees this. I feel like this blog "therapy" is just a was to express myself and how I feel. That's mostly what it has been all along. For those that happen across these posts, you're more than welcome to peruse the archive of my collection of ramblings... but that doesn't really matter either. I come here to state what I feel or believe. That's it. After all, the title of this blog is "Under My Hat" ...it's my hat... my mind... my thoughts... Does that make me always right? ...of course it does. :D ...but only here in my head. I've had stated time and time again that I've made more than my share of mistakes, and that I'll keep on making them. That's okay. If we can't deal with, and accept, our shortcomings... we won't be able to be happy with ourselves. I've been known to overexplain things. It's the "teacher" that comes out to me, but I've also been involved with people that I had to do so because of their lack of thoughtfulness at some of the simplest things. Am I pompous? ...probably at times... Am I ignorant? ...sure... there's a lot of things I don't know. Do I feel I have my negative qualities? ... of course, we all do. But my life is mine. I am satisfied with who I am and where I am headed. I don't take a whole lot of things for granted. I might not live past the day, but that's okay too. I appreciate the days.. and moments where I'm able to just be. There's so much hate and anger in the world today. I try to avoid most of that. It seems like people want to argue and fight. I'm perfectly fine with discussions, but some people try to make it personal. What is anyone trying to accomplish? Why get angry or upset? ...I've never known negativity to solve many problems.. Some people say it makes them feel better to blow up. Better for you, maybe. What about the recipient? ...You're trying to transfer your negativity to that person. I have done so in the past, but not for a long time. I had a discussion with a small group of friends and they asked me how I stay so calm all the time. I've known many people all my life, and they've never seen me angry. I've been hurt a few times, but I get over it. There are only a handful of people who have seen me upset. If I've ever reached that point, it's because I let myself get too emotionally involved in the situation. That's not to say I haven't done other things negatively directed toward other people... but I don't think I did it because I was angry or upset. I was thinking I could try and help Karma along... but I've learned since, that is preposterous. If Karma does exist, that just aims a little back in my direction in the long run. I don't know that I've reached total harmony in my life, but the bad things that have happened to me almost always involved decisions that I made. It might have been a decision of what to say... or what to do... or who to be involved with. I've said once before that most everyone is welcome in my life, regardless of the past. I like to think I'll continue my thought process in that direction. Now the extent of my interaction with anyone will largely depend on them and how they interact with me. Everyone needs to value themselved enough to realize that holding on to the negativity only brings themselves down in the grand scheme of things... I don't see that whole big picture... yet. I may never see it. I don't know if the cosmic balance truly exists, but I like to think it does. Positivity breeds positivity. Negativity breeds negativity. I choose to remain positive.