Life Should Be Livable Once More.

I am done with obsessing over Facebook games...  I seem to let them frustrate me.. the games themselves are fun... if they would work the way they are intended.. but when I have to keep contacting support to fix glitches.. well.. it's just frustrating.  ...and I don't need any frustration in my life right now.  I am working to try to keep my life somewhat calm... It's unnerving enough to deal with the instability of my job.. the instability of my home... I fixed the instability of my online relationships.. by choosing not to go that route ever again.   now.. I'm fixing the source of my recent frustration.. the online games.. I will do my World of Warcraft.. and watch my online TV shows and movies.. and that's it.. at least until my life seems to work out some of the kinks. Sometimes I think that my mental stability is just inches away from breaking my world apart.. but then I think about what I've already come through.. all the deception and frustration.. all the disappointment and pain I've already endured.. and I realize that I can endure a lot. I am not saying I'm the only one that goes through trying times... but sometimes I wonder if there are very many people that has virtually no aspect of their life that is satisfying.  I find it harder and harder to believe in much of anything... I am holding on to the belief in myself.. and that will have to be good enough.  When I reach points in my life where things seem to be falling apart.. I even have difficulty with that too.  Sometimes I feel like I need counselling. Maybe I'm getting to be two fruit loops shy of a cereal bowl... I would never know it anyway.. don't they say... those people who are insane.. never realize they are.  Well.. if I go crazy.. people will just have to deal with me until I get to the point where I'm not safe.. and then someone else will have to make that decision.  My spouse is too incompetent to figure it out.  I am starting a more direct approach with her... even though I've been clear thus far... I need to become more active in the badgering her about her job search.. which by what I've seen.. is non-existent.

I will leave early this morning.. as we are having a student appreciation breakfast.. then several will be bused home until Sunday for the Thanksgiving holiday... I will be able to leave early.. because another department is watching the dorms.. This week has been a very long two days.. and after today.. I will work Friday... 4 hours in the dorms then.  I just want to be engrossed in playing my World of Warcraft.. escaping the problems and irritations of this world.  I am going to try not to let that become the addiction it once was.. but parts of me really don't care if it does. It's not like I have anything of any real importance to focus on in my life. I am just waiting for things to happen..and life should be livable once more.