She Has Been Warned.

I just received an email stating that all non-essential employees would be excused 3 hours early tomorrow for the holiday.  I'm still not sure if this includes me or not. I really don't care if it does...it isn't like I am doing anything special anyway.  I sometimes dread going home.  I talked with someone recently about the outcome of a divorce situation.  The wife is almost always stuck with the responsibility of daily maintenance in the children's lives.  I got to thinking about this.  I don't want to shirk my responsibilities as a parent... I try to honor the commitments I make.. for the most part anyway... I suppose that's part of why I feel... stuck.  I'm going to be in limbo for just a bit more... but I don't want to severely damage my kids when I move out.  I don't want them to think I am abandoning them... but I can't deal with living in the same house as my spouse for much longer ...I am already feeling the frustration of having to do it for so long.

I need to take a breath and gather my thoughts on the matter, but I still feel as though this is going to be a severe burden on me... and my kids... just because my spouse is too inept to find any type of job.  I will probably have to end up finding her one so my kids don't starve.  I can only see them going on welfare with my current plan... and that irks me tremendously.  I am very close to having my first "meltdown" on my spouse... but she can't say she didn't see it coming... she has been warned.

Published with Blogger-droid v2.0.9

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

Not In My Lifetime.

It's 1:15 am.. I just got back from my niece's wedding.. and it was.. different .. not what I was used to.. but nice all the same..  I only have this to say about the reception... WTF!!! l guess I should give a bit of background information... my spouse wandered off doing her own thing.. as I prefer it that way... so when I happen to come into close proximity of her by accident.. she motions me over.. and has been talking to the head of the catering company... they have been talking for awhile.. and in a short period of time.. they have been getting to know each other a bit..   as I approach.. this woman.. who's name is the same as my spouse.. is saying.. "I just seem to know him.. he looks like John.. somebody"  My spouse then starts with a sales pitch of how great of a guy I am.. and what I do teaching computers.. and this woman starts striking up a conversation with me in front of my spouse.. she even talks about how handsome I am...   she mentions that she i...
Read more

Something I Have Learned Well.

It's odd how we interact with others on so many levels... one would assume by my wide range of references that I have a large assortment of friends.. In all actuality, the people in my circle of friends could be counted on my hands.. and close friends... well..  easily on one hand. I'm not what I would consider a social butterfly... but to be honest.. I sometimes like crowds.. I enjoy having groups of people around me.. I don't stick out like a sore thumb.. and sometimes getting lost in the rest of the world... isn't such a bad thing. How often do you go and "people watch" ....and then think about those people once you're gone... not very often, I'm guessing.. not unless one did something completely out of the ordinary.  I just like having the feeling that I'm normal.. an ordinary person... I just sat here in this chair for most of the weekend.. not really accomplishing anything.. nothing constructive by any means... I feel as though maybe I'm...
Read more

Stay Out Of Things Where I Don't Belong.

I am starting to get used to the hours... I think... who knows.. one day I feel like I was drug out of my bed kicking and screaming... other days I feel like I've been poured full of coffee and energy drinks... I've cut down on my morning coffee by the way... Oh... I didn't blog about that... after first moving here, I started drinking flavored coffee in the mornings... but I've decided I don't want to get dependent on that.... I still have the occasional coffee... but as I've said before... too much of anything is a bad idea... so I cut back.  I also decided to give up something for Lent... I might have blogged about it... but I tried to think of something that would be a sacrifice.. so I gave up masturbation.  I know that's not really in the spirit of Lent... as far as giving up something like that... but hey... I can't think of many other things I enjoy more... especially with my sex life as it is... I sorta don't have the inspiration at this poi...
Read more