Room to breathe...

I know she needs her space.. she told me so.. even with all that has happened.. I think she is afraid..  she thinks that I would leave her sooner or later.. I understand why she was pushing me away.. I understand.. it does hurt.. and always will..  but I DO understand.  I think she needs this... but.. I don't.. I am not leaving..   ..or moving on.. because I know who I am.. and what I feel... I refuse to be something I'm not.. and I am still in love with her..  I always will be. The thing that hurts me most now.. is being ignored.. Maybe she's doing it.. because she can't face what I have to say.. the things I'm saying.. are too much truth at the moment.  That's ok.. I will be here..  I don't contact her.. because she needs that space.. and she knows where I am.  I can't force anyone to love me.. or even care.. but I feel that she DOES care.. she's just trying to "stick her head in the sand" right now.. and occupy herself..  

I could just be telling myself all this to make myself feel better at being jilted..  I don't know sometimes.. I shouldn't really pretend to know how she is feeling.. I just know how I feel.. that's why most of my posts.. are about me.. and my feelings.. I get such a wide range of emotions.. yes.. I've been somewhat angry.. hurt.. depressed.. sad.. jealous..  but through the whole thing.. I've been able to hold on to the one emotion that is far greater than any of them.. Love..  I love her.. that's why I'm giving her room to breathe.

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