I do what I have to

This is another testing day for my students.. so I will be driving them to Nashville this morning for a full day of testing. Sometimes I envy them.. not having to worry about supporting themselves.. getting training paid for by the government.. a place to live.. medical care... all they have to do for it.. is .. study. The tests are what get some of them.. but life in itself is a test. We are tested every day in so many ways. I don't mind though.. I just need to keep my strength up and face whatever it is I need to face each day. I sometimes feel that maybe I am not quite as good a friend as I once was.. it's not that I wouldn't do what I can for those I consider my friends.. I just feel like... maybe I don't put as much effort into keeping friendships active.. for me.. once I consider you my friend.. I try to make myself accessible if needed.. just a very few of my close friends get my phone number...and I am accessible 24/7. I want nothing but the best for my friends.. and every one of them.. should know me well enough to know that.. I had one of my friends talk once about time spent apart from a true friend.. she said that even a week.. or month could pass.. and that someone who was a true friend.. could start up.. right where they left off.. For a long time.. I really couldn't see how.. but after a few times of that happening.. I do see.. I suppose that we get caught up in the crap of our every day lives.. and we get distracted from the people that mean the most to us... work.. family.. they are a big part of that.. especially when we go to trying to balance out unexpected events.. like overtime.. pressing deadlines.. etc.  ... I think that our lives are too quickly paced.. Sometimes it would be nice.. to just be able to enjoy the time we have.. I spend some of my evening time now.. trying to get caught up with work.. I have evaluations for 20 students due.. asap.. I have IDPs due.. and a various assortment of other tasks.. since I don't work as much overtime.. I sort of get caught up in those at times.. plus.... I've started watching Big Bang Theory on a semi-regular basis.. not that I'm trying to make excuses.. but sometimes I feel that maybe I should concentrate the most.. on scheduling my life so that my work doesn't interfere with my leisure.. Until then.. I do what I have to.

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