I'm clean.

I was thinking about things today... and what I really stand for... I realized that there are very few things in my life.. that I would be hurt if they actually came out.... who can actually say that... that they have nothing to hide. I've made a few mistakes in my life.. certain enough.. but I would be able to face my demons if they ever surfaced.. Not many can actually say that... I am no better than anyone else, but I don't do much that I regret.  ...and of the very few things I've done... there's no reason to ever say I didn't do them... I would own up to it.  I don't know why so many people feel a need to be ashamed of what they've done.. or who they are. ...it's not really like they're lying.. so much as they just don't want the truth to be known.  If each of us digs into our past, we may be able to find issues lying dormant that we put into a back corner somewhere.. in hopes that no one ever finds out... but still we have to face the fact that we did do them... and until we can admit it.. we cannot truly be comfortable with ourselves.. and who we are.  I am proud to say that I've thought about all the things I've done.. and wouldn't be afraid of anything in my past.  ...unless I'm missing some deep dark-rooted secret... I'm clean.

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  1. ScooberTinaMay 13, 2012 at 8:57 AM

    I told someone that recently. I have nothing to hide. I have no regrets. I have no reason to lie about anything. So does that make me clean too? lol..

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  2. SpecialKMay 16, 2012 at 5:43 AM

    yup.. you are definitely clean.

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