It's now time to act.

I spent time yesterday... at church.. sometimes I feel like such a hypocrite for attending.. so.. I don't go nearly as much as I should.. I was there yesterday... for my daughter.. she was baptized.. I am proud of her.. even though I haven't been to church with them in a bit.. she has found something she believes in.. and is following her heart. That is all I have wanted for my children.. I still believe in God.. I know he exists.. I just choose to worship him in my own way. I have always wanted my daughters to follow what belief was put in their heart.. just as I feel all people should do. I don't exactly follow the doctrine of the church I was raised. I have a severe issue with Matthew 5:28. It is a problem.. I also know that I won't be changing my attitude any time soon.  I have decided to have the "talk" with my spouse again... I am giving her until January.. to get her "shit straight" so she can live.. without me.. I am planning on moving out then... this gives her plenty of time to prepare. I see nothing changing in the way we're living now.  She is not making any changes to her life.. nor is she working to find a job.. or any other viable means of support.  I don't know when we'll tell the kids.. but I'm thinking.. after Christmas... for them.. I don't want to ruin Christmas.. and birthdays. I don't know what will happen between now and then... but I have my mind made up... it's now time to act.

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