We still make the choices on who we are...

You ever get the feeling you're being watched.. I think we all do that.. and sometimes we pick certain people to watch.. When I was in college, I loved doing my clothes at the laundromat. I could take something to read.. or work on.. and watch the wide variety of people who came in and out of the establishment. It's sort of like that at the airport too.. you can watch... and wonder.. Each person is saddled with their own issues.. their own problems that they have to deal with...  We all think that our problems are much worse and more important than anyone else's ... they are no more.. or less important.. they are just different... still we sometimes let those problems get us down... I spent over 6 months in a major depressive moods... and now.. I'm doing wonderful.. I held on to things in my head.. that were just fantasy and were never real.. even if I thought they were at the time.. yes.. it does get one to doubt sometimes what is real.. and what is not... but that shouldn't even be an issue... each one of us needs to enjoy life as we get it... take the positive things ... and not dwell on the negative. Some will argue that I feel this way.. because I'm in a relationship.. The actual relationship didn't start until I turned a corner.. and allowed myself to put my dark history behind me.. no more dwelling with the crazy issues of my past... They are gone.. and where I remember them.. I don't let the control my life.  Until we can do that.. until we can become independent.. and happy in ourselves.. we are doomed to live in a life of sadness and despair... I have several friends that are battling their own demons.. I wish I could be more of a support.. but when it comes down to it... the only one that can truly change the life and attitude.. of anyone.. is that person. When all is said and done.. we still make the choices on who we are...

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