It's about time for a change.

I get to wash dishes this morning... well.. that is what I'm doing at work.. we have a student appreciation breakfast.. and I learned a few years ago how to run the industrial dishwasher... so I always volunteer for that job.  It keeps me busy and time goes by quickly... Unfortunately I can't do that with the rest of my life.. it always runs by so slowly.. unless I'm doing something I really enjoy... I guess the old phrase.. "time flies when you're having fun" actually does fit. I am hoping that I have the ability to catch up on a few things at work once breakfast is over... it seems like I'm always playing catch up.... but I'm okay with that.. I'm taking the time out of my schedule to do a few things that I really enjoy doing. I feel like there is too much time spent on worrying about things I can't control.. I know I shouldn't.. but I think we all do that. I am doing a better job of being more serene though. I feel like my life is a bit more focused.  I feel like a lot of my friends are starting to get a handle on their lives.. and that makes me very happy. That... combined with a special person in my life who makes me feel I am wanted... gives me great hope for the future.  I do have some wonderful people in my life.. and I am thankful for every last one of them.  I sometimes feel a bit overwhelmed when so many of them are having issues.. but for the most part.. those are their issues.. and all I can do is listen.. and console.. I am trying to stop offering much advice.. most people don't heed it anyway... and then wind up messing up things even further.. I do feel like I have an insight into the workings of people... it's just sometimes in the past I have forgotten to apply that to my own relationships. That's where I've screwed up. I need to be open and honest with myself about what's going on in my life...  It's sort of scary to think what might be in store... because it's a major life change for me... at this point in my life.. things might not be ...happy.. but they're stable.. It's about time for a change.

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