I don't seek to be anything I'm not.

I think that life is going to be okay... for a lot of people... I had a conversation with someone and she was talking about an ex that was with one of her best friends... and that friends don't do that to others... well.. things happen beyond our control.. so.. it happens... move on... The thing is.. I told her that she doesn't have to wish them happiness... I personally don't wish any of my ex's... happiness.. I don't want to see them suffer... but why would I choose for them to be happy with someone else? I wasn't the one who left.   ..now don't get me wrong.. I wouldn't choose to have them back now... even if I could... but the fact remains.. I don't see how this is the "adult" way to be.   We have it ingrained in our heads from an early age.. that we should wish everyone happiness... It's nice to forgive and forget.. and I can forgive.. I just have a little issue sometimes with the forgetting part.. I continue to be mindful of things so I can learn from my past mistakes.  We ALL make mistakes... and we go on.. and learn from them.. we deal with life as it happens... I am not going to make any effort to cause pain.. or suffering.. but most of us think.. that we should always turn the other cheek.. maybe in some instances.. but not all.. If someone does the same thing... to your child... how are you going to feel about that other person.. are you going to ...wish them happiness? ...I think not.. We are always too willing to give ourselves that push to be mature... but that's not a requirement of living.. I don't even think it's a requirement of maturity to wish happiness.. I hope life goes on.. and it's not too painful.. that's the best I can wish certain people... so.. maybe I'm not the mature person that people think I should be... that's okay.. I can live with that.. it won't be the last immature thing I do.  I love where my life is now.. I'm happy and will enjoy MY happiness. I don't seek to be anything I'm not.

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

Not In My Lifetime.

It's 1:15 am.. I just got back from my niece's wedding.. and it was.. different .. not what I was used to.. but nice all the same..  I only have this to say about the reception... WTF!!! l guess I should give a bit of background information... my spouse wandered off doing her own thing.. as I prefer it that way... so when I happen to come into close proximity of her by accident.. she motions me over.. and has been talking to the head of the catering company... they have been talking for awhile.. and in a short period of time.. they have been getting to know each other a bit..   as I approach.. this woman.. who's name is the same as my spouse.. is saying.. "I just seem to know him.. he looks like John.. somebody"  My spouse then starts with a sales pitch of how great of a guy I am.. and what I do teaching computers.. and this woman starts striking up a conversation with me in front of my spouse.. she even talks about how handsome I am...   she mentions that she i...
Read more

Something I Have Learned Well.

It's odd how we interact with others on so many levels... one would assume by my wide range of references that I have a large assortment of friends.. In all actuality, the people in my circle of friends could be counted on my hands.. and close friends... well..  easily on one hand. I'm not what I would consider a social butterfly... but to be honest.. I sometimes like crowds.. I enjoy having groups of people around me.. I don't stick out like a sore thumb.. and sometimes getting lost in the rest of the world... isn't such a bad thing. How often do you go and "people watch" ....and then think about those people once you're gone... not very often, I'm guessing.. not unless one did something completely out of the ordinary.  I just like having the feeling that I'm normal.. an ordinary person... I just sat here in this chair for most of the weekend.. not really accomplishing anything.. nothing constructive by any means... I feel as though maybe I'm...
Read more

Stay Out Of Things Where I Don't Belong.

I am starting to get used to the hours... I think... who knows.. one day I feel like I was drug out of my bed kicking and screaming... other days I feel like I've been poured full of coffee and energy drinks... I've cut down on my morning coffee by the way... Oh... I didn't blog about that... after first moving here, I started drinking flavored coffee in the mornings... but I've decided I don't want to get dependent on that.... I still have the occasional coffee... but as I've said before... too much of anything is a bad idea... so I cut back.  I also decided to give up something for Lent... I might have blogged about it... but I tried to think of something that would be a sacrifice.. so I gave up masturbation.  I know that's not really in the spirit of Lent... as far as giving up something like that... but hey... I can't think of many other things I enjoy more... especially with my sex life as it is... I sorta don't have the inspiration at this poi...
Read more