All You Can Do Is Take It.

Try as I might.. there are just some things I will never be able to understand..  I have blogged about so much here.. but in retrospect, I realize that my mind is sometimes at a very dark and dismal place.. I'm not like that in person... I have so much pain and turmoil to get through sometimes... and this is the place I do that.  I don't count on other people.. because at some point most other people in my life tend to walk out of it.. or maybe they're carried out by someone or something else. I do have trust issues.. I have abandonment issues.. I have self-esteem issues at times... we all have issues though.  It is how we act on the emotions that surface when we face our conflicts that define who we are.  We can hide from the world... or we can actively work to overcome the obstacles keeping us from being happy.  Whether we are productive or not doesn't matter.. at least we made the effort.. We can wallow in self-pity all we want.. and many times that is a temporary fix.. but it just serves to drag us down even further.  I've never met a person that deserves pity.. and I wouldn't want it myself.  I'd much rather have a helping hand than a word or two enforcing my negative outlook on myself... sometimes people say wonderful compliments without meaning them.. that just empowers a person to think.. self-pity does give me the recognition and attention I crave.  That's what self-pity is .... a cry for attention.. a person becomes so low in self-esteem that they tend to lash out at themselves to be built up by the people around them.  I don't want any pity or remorse.. as I have said so many times.. the past is the past.. walk away from it.. in doing so.. you walk toward a future.  I know that so many people go through tough times.. and it is because of those times that we become stronger and stronger.. it takes strength to overcome adversity.  It is a good thing to build your character.. because life will throw things at you sometimes that you will never be prepared for.. and all you can do is take it.