That's All I Can Do Right Now.

Day 2 on planet AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHH.   They're here.. the inspectors... and everyone is running around with their smoke.. and their mirrors trying to hide whatever they can... and then we have all of this meeting and that meeting... While I sit and do my part to be as normal as I can.. doesn't work.. I'm playing along with the rest of them for two basic reasons... 1.. I was ordered to... and 2.  I don't think the people that came in are really competent in distinguishing the good from the bullshit..

We got a notice that they are starting WRAPS (Workforce Restructuring And Placement System) ...at least having a meeting on it.. this was after an email about laying off 340 workers at 28 centers..  or maybe furloughs... no one has a clue yet.. it's the government.. I'm sure they'll make the least logical decision.. so I'm not even going to try to guess what's going on.. well.. yeah.. I'll make speculations.. but nothing substantial.

I wish they would just resolve it... I hate all this limbo... where have you heard that before... ummm... yeah.. that's right.. me. I just want something to happen... I don't really care what at this point.. I've been stir crazy for so long cooped up in my room.. only to leave it to see all these kids every day.. and the only adult face-to-face interaction I get is with my co-workers.. for brief periods of time..  I need more than that... I need something substantially more... I don't care if it is long-term.. or short term... just a person I can talk with face-to-face.. and see who this person is..  because if it doesn't happen.. I'm probably going to end up snapping.. not on anyone.. just letting my mind go away.. I just feel so emotionally and intellectually drained.  I don't really know how  much more sanity I can pretend to have.. I think that most people have a serious amount of insanity in their system.. but most of the time we can cut loose on a regular basis.. and sort of burn it off over time... well.. my insanity levels are at their all-time high.  I just want to join the rest of the planet in not having to drive hours for social interaction.  Still I am just venting..  That's all I can do right now..

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