If Life Is Too Easy... You're Doing It Wrong.

I had somewhat of a meltdown on my students yesterday... I've been feeling a lot of pressure from life in general.. and even more from my job with this upcoming review next week.. so I had to leave the classroom a few times yesterday morning each time coming back to a lot of goofing off... and there is still so much to do in the classroom.   So when I found a condom on the floor of the classroom... is when I realized I had to do something as I was losing them.. Luckily the condom was unused... but still I asked who had the condom.. and no one could ...or would confess... so I pulled over the nearest bookcase.. scattering books everywhere.. then I left and slammed the door.. sometimes we have to do dramatic things to get attention... I rarely do that because if I put on a dramatic show more than one in a great while.... it would lose its effectiveness.... still.. I'm not a violent person.. I do however expect people to do what they are supposed to do.. at least most of the time... and the fact that most of the center is incompetent is no excuse. It is all about setting some standards for yourself.  I like what I'm doing... not only because I'm teaching students how to work on computers.. but I'm trying to build people to have certain standards in their life... it doesn't matter if they agree with my particular standards... but everyone needs to set standards they can aspire to.. not ones that can be met with no effort..

Life has a lot of conflict.. It seems as though it builds and builds until it comes shooting at you in all directions.. but I know that eventually things work out.. People need to hold on to hope.. and trust in the future.. it's what keeps most people going.  Sure there are going to be setbacks.. and at times life will kick you in the teeth.. but that's all part of it.  If we look within ourselves, we can find that strength of character to keep us going on.  There are times when all of us feel like giving up.. or giving in.. but our character is like a muscle.. it gets stronger the more you use it.. I could have given in many times to trials and temptations in life.. but then I'd be a person who would allow anyone or anything into my life... and I'm much stronger than that.. as it is.. when you let the wrong person into your life.. or someone in for the wrong reasons.. you end up causing yourself more conflict and pain... that can also be said about holding on to someone that no longer wishes to be in your life.  Let them go.. if you can't.. you'll never rid yourself of the past conflicts.  I always hope to be able to look toward my future with at least some degree of hope.  I've lost faith before.. and it's okay to do that... you hit dark paths in your life... but you can't give up.. Once you do that.. what does anything mean?  I will keep striving because it's all that I can do.. other than die.. and I'm just not ready for that yet.  Things will be difficult I know.. but if life is too easy... you're doing it wrong.