They Deserve What They Get.

I am really not sure how long this blog is... as my mind has been completely frazzled by life in general lately. The audit team was supposed to leave on Thursday afternoon.. but I found out Friday that they will be there next week... I don't know how long.. and don't know why... I really don't know much of anything.. other than this is the first time I've ever seen them take over a week. It's somewhat strange.. but so is life sometimes.  I just feel like my brain is somewhat numb.. on top of it all, I have spent the day in Bowling Green with my daughters... and my dad and spouse invited themselves along... My dad.. is sooooo controlling.  I just have no strength to resist right now.. and my spouse.. I've gotten to the point.. I just tune her out. I know that sounds bad.. but she can go on and on about the most mundane of stuff... maybe it's because I have developed such a poor attitude toward her.. and our relationship... I'm sure that's a driving factor.  The one positive thing.. I was able to sneak away from my dad when I took one daughter one way... and my spouse took the other daughter to another place.. dad was trying to keep us all together so he could keep his eye on everyone at once.. for a bit.. I thought when we started walking toward different destinations.. his brain was going to explode.. I could see the stress on his face.. but we did it anyway... and guess what.. we actually lived without his supervision .. go figure.

so he was with me and my offspring for a bit.. and my spouse and our other offspring.. and then my spouse and I swapped out daughters... and really confused my dad.  I think he may have mentioned a headache...  he actually said something to the effect that... "Oh.. we can go that way later" ...trying to keep us herded in a group.. still it didn't work... we're not cattle.   He pulled out his credit card and paid for things before I had a chance... so I'm sure I'll hear about that for a week or two.. especially if I'm going to offer any resistance to his wishes..  He enjoys having something to hold over my head.. but guess what.. I really don't care anymore.. a gift is a gift is a gift.. they're given.. without strings... at least in my mind... so I won't let anyone guilt me into making me think I owe anything for things I receive.  

There is a Southern Kentucky Fair going on.. pretty big one.. I thought briefly about mentioning it.. then I realized that it would be more of the same.. I can take my dad in small doses.. and if I thought he would have many years ahead of us.. I would probably be less tolerant of him.. but as bad as he is getting.. both physically and mentally.. I'm concerned that he won't live another year.. he's gone downhill a lot since my mom passed away.. so I will try to be more tolerant.. but that still only goes so far.. and I'm sure he will push those boundaries many times.  He has before.

I toyed with the idea of logging back into a site.. the one that needs people the most.. but I was going to do it for the wrong reason.. to log in.. only to stir up as much shit as I could.  I actually probably have dormant accounts out there somewhere that I have forgotten completely about.. I know the two main sites.. and my log-in has remained unused.. but I'm sure there are other things I may have signed up for.. I'm pretty sure I've closed any other accounts I remembered I had.. and if I do remember anymore.. they'll be closed as well... for a short period of time.. I actually had an Ashley Madison account.. but I was so cynical.. I shot down anyone who approached me.. that's when I realized that my online interaction would never work.. I'm way too cynical.. so I closed that account very quickly.. I don't even remember what username I used... it was some variation of what I always have used..  Anyway... it really doesn't matter.. because I don't ever seeing me being that addle-minded again.  I've always said that you can't really knock something until you've tried it.. so .. I tried it.. and found out it wasn't for me. I think most of us have preconceived notions about people.. about things.. and sometimes it isn't necessary for us to be exposed to those things in order to know they are not for us..   We all have a tendency to delve into things we have no business doing.. but fortunately most of us are also smart enough to leave the stupid things along.. well.. those that don't.. they deserve what they get.