Life's A Bitch.

I am not even sure what I'm going to blog about this morning.. but I've had a little extra time.. and felt the need to make an attempt to blog.  Even though sometimes I get the urge to blog about something in particular, most of the time I don't have a clue what's going to come out.  I've had a somewhat stressful week.. they are coming to evaluate the center next week.. and my supervisor gave them my name to talk to as a contact... it might be because I'm more knowledgeable about the way things are supposed to be done.. but I don't think she counts on me being totally honest.. because that's what they're going to get from me.  I'm not going to throw anyone under the bus on purpose.. but I'm not going to sweep things under the rug either.. I'm a firm believer in shooting straight and letting the chips fall where they may.  Anyone who has spoken to me.. should realize that's just the way I am.. Now.. there are times when I didn't fall true to that statement.. that I fell short of my belief.. and I ended up paying the price for it.. more due to the stress I put in my mind than anything else.  That's why I understand if someone might not always be truthful... it's human nature... but it still gives me the knowledge that it might not be that hard to lie to me.. and for some reason.. I can't deal with that.. but I also cannot fault anyone on the receiving end of the untruths..  I've even lied to myself.. it's those times when I realize that maybe the standard I set is too unattainable for anyone.. I was asked by a student yesterday about setting goals and aspirations.. and I explained ... if you set all your goals too low.. you'll never live to your full potential.. but if you set them too high.. you'll live with disappointment all your life.. sometimes you have to work to adjust your goals.. to where you can meet some of them.. or where they are at least attainable..  If you strive.. and strive.. and never get to the point where you are happy with your efforts.. you've set yourself up for failure.. and you'll wind up with a miserable life... so.. here I am.. realizing that I need to set smaller goals.. that I need to work toward at least a few things in my grasp... That's the difficult part.. what can I do?   What parts of my life can I work on at the moment.   It seems like it's been so long since I've really been happy.. and I am trying to figure out what I can do about it.  At the moment.. I don't have a clue.. all I can do is contemplate my situation.. and try to come up with a plan to meet a few goals.. they don't have to be relationship oriented.. or work oriented.. just.. some life goals..  something that will allow me to get just a bit of satisfaction out of life.. because in all honesty.. Life's a  bitch.