It Will Be Over.
I learned how to turn my touch pad on my laptop off.. I needed to do that because I keep auto selecting my blog.. and typing over what is there.. effectively erasing it. I've done that several times.. and it gets more and more frustrating each time. I lost about 20 minutes of blogging this morning.. so I decided something needed to be done.. and after looking through a few things.. I discovered the tapping disable feature.. so we'll see how that works.
Something I've wondered.. and I had lots of feelings on it just a bit ago.. but now that I've already blogged it once.. I don't know how much more I need to get out.. is how we tend to have certain sexual desires.. I know there is a whole lot about hormones released.. and discussion can be made for the chemical reactions in our bodies.. but what makes it so strong in some people? What causes the increase in pleasure for certain things.. for example.. oral sex.. anal sex.. the different positions.. what causes someone to prefer one over the other.. is it the sensations we feel? and then why?? I mean it's still skin touching skin.. I personally believe that sex is 80 percent mental. We develop a like.. or dislike for things based on attitudes we develop.. so what if we are able to reproduce the same stimulation from things.. I know that there are toys that can be used.. and some people like them.. but do they like them as much as the real thing? In my way of thinking.. that just seems weird. then you have some women who like to have a release.. in certain areas of their body... if you go by tactile stimulation.. that would be the same as throwing warm water.. or some other substance.. but again.. it almost has to be the mental stimulation that goes along with it... as well as other activities.. like.. spanking.. hair pulling.. biting.. there are a wide variety of events that can cause a sexual reaction.. and even words.. think about that.. some people can get a strong sexual response.. just from reading words. I know there is no tactile stimulation for that... unless one gets involved in self stimulation. I can read erotic things I written.. and it brings about nice thoughts.. same as reading an erotic novel.. but I think it's the mental interaction with someone else that really causes a reaction. Probably because in invokes thoughts that remind us of previous sensations we've discovered that cause a high index of pleasure... and then why is it certain thoughts with certain people don't give us the same reaction.. or as intense levels.. I guess it boils down to why are we attracted to certain people and certain things.. and then with other people or things.. we might have nice thoughts.. but it just doesn't "pop our cork". And how do we learn to control these things.. I know that with certain people in our life.. the heightened sense of pleasure far surpasses the emotions we feel for others.. There are certain people in my life I've chatted with.. that I've never though of in a sexual sense.. and then there are others.. where I put them in a position in my mind.. and they are forever stuck there.. no matter what I might try to do to change that.. both sexually and non-sexually.. There are so many factors that go into our interaction with other people. Can we make ourselves be attracted to someone else? Can we make ourselves become not attracted? I have lost any attraction whatsoever to my spouse.. even to the point where her getting close to me.. sort of irritates me.. I know it is a mental thing.. because I have been through so much mental pain with her... it's the same with some of the people from my past.. I have developed this sense of disgust at having let them so close to me just knowing they were using me to get through certain moments of their life.. Don't get me wrong.. I'm not even completely ruling out semi-casual sex with someone now.. even though there are still rules that I follow.. and I would have to trust that person well enough to be intimate without worrying about AIDS.. I used to associate sex with.. forever committed. And still to have sex with someone.. is some sort of commitment.. at least a monogamous relationship for the time being.. My outlook that I can be intimate with someone for a certain length of time... has changed.. I believe it is possible.. but I won't let myself believe in forever anymore.. I've learned that won't be..at least not with me.. no matter how strong the feelings are...and I can accept that. But I won't ever be involved with someone who is looking for that. Because they don't mean it.. they are just fooling themselves...and will invoke whatever words they can to try to make you believe it. Then realization sets in and it all turns to shit. So I am evolving my train of thought to believe that people can be intimate.. for a period of time.. monogamous even.. but then at some point.. they'll move on.. and it will be over..
Something I've wondered.. and I had lots of feelings on it just a bit ago.. but now that I've already blogged it once.. I don't know how much more I need to get out.. is how we tend to have certain sexual desires.. I know there is a whole lot about hormones released.. and discussion can be made for the chemical reactions in our bodies.. but what makes it so strong in some people? What causes the increase in pleasure for certain things.. for example.. oral sex.. anal sex.. the different positions.. what causes someone to prefer one over the other.. is it the sensations we feel? and then why?? I mean it's still skin touching skin.. I personally believe that sex is 80 percent mental. We develop a like.. or dislike for things based on attitudes we develop.. so what if we are able to reproduce the same stimulation from things.. I know that there are toys that can be used.. and some people like them.. but do they like them as much as the real thing? In my way of thinking.. that just seems weird. then you have some women who like to have a release.. in certain areas of their body... if you go by tactile stimulation.. that would be the same as throwing warm water.. or some other substance.. but again.. it almost has to be the mental stimulation that goes along with it... as well as other activities.. like.. spanking.. hair pulling.. biting.. there are a wide variety of events that can cause a sexual reaction.. and even words.. think about that.. some people can get a strong sexual response.. just from reading words. I know there is no tactile stimulation for that... unless one gets involved in self stimulation. I can read erotic things I written.. and it brings about nice thoughts.. same as reading an erotic novel.. but I think it's the mental interaction with someone else that really causes a reaction. Probably because in invokes thoughts that remind us of previous sensations we've discovered that cause a high index of pleasure... and then why is it certain thoughts with certain people don't give us the same reaction.. or as intense levels.. I guess it boils down to why are we attracted to certain people and certain things.. and then with other people or things.. we might have nice thoughts.. but it just doesn't "pop our cork". And how do we learn to control these things.. I know that with certain people in our life.. the heightened sense of pleasure far surpasses the emotions we feel for others.. There are certain people in my life I've chatted with.. that I've never though of in a sexual sense.. and then there are others.. where I put them in a position in my mind.. and they are forever stuck there.. no matter what I might try to do to change that.. both sexually and non-sexually.. There are so many factors that go into our interaction with other people. Can we make ourselves be attracted to someone else? Can we make ourselves become not attracted? I have lost any attraction whatsoever to my spouse.. even to the point where her getting close to me.. sort of irritates me.. I know it is a mental thing.. because I have been through so much mental pain with her... it's the same with some of the people from my past.. I have developed this sense of disgust at having let them so close to me just knowing they were using me to get through certain moments of their life.. Don't get me wrong.. I'm not even completely ruling out semi-casual sex with someone now.. even though there are still rules that I follow.. and I would have to trust that person well enough to be intimate without worrying about AIDS.. I used to associate sex with.. forever committed. And still to have sex with someone.. is some sort of commitment.. at least a monogamous relationship for the time being.. My outlook that I can be intimate with someone for a certain length of time... has changed.. I believe it is possible.. but I won't let myself believe in forever anymore.. I've learned that won't be..at least not with me.. no matter how strong the feelings are...and I can accept that. But I won't ever be involved with someone who is looking for that. Because they don't mean it.. they are just fooling themselves...and will invoke whatever words they can to try to make you believe it. Then realization sets in and it all turns to shit. So I am evolving my train of thought to believe that people can be intimate.. for a period of time.. monogamous even.. but then at some point.. they'll move on.. and it will be over..
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