A Perfect End To My Sucky Day

Most everyone has a tendency to lie... whether they're trying to just be agreeable.. or not.. it doesn't matter.. I have a spouse who is too much like that already... agrees to anything.. is okay with anything.. will say anything to avoid a confrontation.. and then doesn't have the strength of character to do what she wants to do. I want my spouse to go out.. and find someone... and make herself happy... her happiness shouldn't be dependent on me.. or my happiness.. because we don't have that type of relationship anymore. I kind of think maybe I promote my spouse being in limbo as well as myself.. mostly because I don't take any action to stop her from thinking that way... maybe she thought I'd never leave... but recently she's come to that realization.. that things are just a certain way.  I know things couldn't have been easy for her... as it's difficult to not make things personal.  still I've learned a long time ago that no matter what people say... they lie to themselves.. as well as to me. Most don't know what they want.. and then if they get what they think they might want.. then they run from it... I believe all my relationships have been like that.. I think my spouse is like that.. except she didn't run physically.. she ran emotionally. We all have these voices in our head that tell us the way we are supposed to behave.. what actions we are supposed to do... and we listen to all the voices and believe them.. If we don't have a plan for our lives.. we are just setting ourselves up for another letdown.. and then another.. The problem I run into is that most people don't take me for what I say... even if  they say they do... they are lying.  I don't honestly know what I believe anymore... I certainly don't believe words.. and if someone comes to me saying something ... it's just sounds coming from their mouth. It's all a game to most people.. one that they play in their head.  It's too bad the players in their game.. have to be the victims of whatever roles they are put into.  We each have this plan we have put into place.. and we want our lives to follow that... well.. guess what.. life doesn't follow any plan.. It's a series of events strung together to make a continuous flow of time in a person's life.  If you want a future.. just live in the present.. and accept what is.. leave the past behind.. because if you can't.. you aren't living.. you are existing.  Existing in a memory. Some people will go their entire lives... trying to put thing back to the way they were before... and not accept that things continue to move forward.

I had a day from hell yesterday with my dad... we spent about 7 hours out fishing.. in that time.. I may have fished for about 30 minutes.. at the most.  Dad has gotten to the point where he can't hear.. or doesn't listen.. or.. who knows... plus he can't see.. he wears a $1.00 pair of reading glasses he bought at Wal-Mart because he refuses to go to an eye doctor... anyway... during a fishing trip.. I took my two rods.. one with a spinning reel.. the other with a casting reel... and baited the casting set up... and was about to throw it in the water... Dad.. wanting to be the expert fisherman.. went with a spinning reel... I had put a hook and sinkers on his rod before we left the house...  Now dad... used to be able to fish.. but he's never used one of these.. so.. I had to work with him on how to cast this type of reel... trying to get him to only use one finger.. but he couldn't see the line.. so he kept grabbing the line with all four fingers..  after about 10 minutes or so... I finally got him to holding it right... and went back to my first pole.. I put my line in the water...about 30 secs later.. dad wasn't satisfied where he had thrown his line... so he reeled it back in... and attempted to cast it again... throwing it over me.. and into some rocks down below...  I already saw what was coming... in order to not tangle lines.. since I was sitting.. and he was standing.. he needed to walk behind me.. and that's what I said.
.. it's okay Dad.. just walk behind me.. as he was walking exactly opposite..
Dad..watch that rock in front of me there is moss on it it's slick... just walk behind me....
Dad!! .. behind me Dad.. The other Way!!
DAD!!!
ummm.. yeah there went Dad.. down.. I heard a snap.. and for a second thought I was going to have to carry him to the vehicle with a broken bone.. but as I glanced a second time... I found that the rod he was using was just snapped in two... well.. he wouldn't be using that anymore.. but in all the excitement, he didn't notice it was broken.. so instead of telling him.. and making him feel badly.. I just opted for the... easy way out...
Dad... how about I trade this casting reel for that spinning reel.. I like those better anyway... to which he readily agreed.  so I brushed the broken rod off to the side.. and set to work on my non-broken rod... halfway through.. Dad is hung again.. so I get the linesman pliers and cut the line.. of course this was after he was insistent on doing it himself.. and he might have too... if he could have seen the line... but his previous fall had resulted in the immersion of his glasses into the river below us...  We spent the better part of the day... him getting hung.. breaking the line off..putting on another hook and sinkers... only to lose them again a few minutes later... during some part of this.. I actually did get a few minutes to fish... and hooked a decent size fish... 16 inches or so.. too bad it was a Carp... not the best tasting fish... so... after moving to 2 more spots.. at Dad's recommendation... and using up a dozen hooks and two dozen worms due to tree snags.. rock snags and the like... it was time to come home.. only 7 hours later..

I came in... cleaned up.. and put on a clean pair of pants.. put my pocket stuff in them.. and spent the next few hours online... only... when dad left.. my pants.. I took them off and put on my basketball shorts.. hanging my pants by my bed to wear today...  At some point my spouse took it upon herself to decide to wash... and grabbed my pants... cleaning out all the pockets ....EXCEPT.. the one that had my bluetooth in it...  of course I didn't notice this until later.. when I was going to put my devices on the charger overnight... oh well.. a Plantronics Voyager Pro in the trash... it was a nice one too.. a perfect end to my sucky day.