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There is a lot of pain in this world... but there is some good stuff too.. Sometimes it is difficult to see the good because we're focusing too greatly on the pain.  When a woman is in labor... she is given something to focus on.. to help her through the discomfort...   Well.. I shouldn't say discomfort.. that's like saying having your balls ripped off is a minor dislocation. Still.. the pain is always there.. whether it be an immediate onslaught.. or things that haunt you from your past.  We all say that we are over it.. and that we've put things behind us... but it's our experiences that make us a part of who we are.. and why we see things a certain way.  Whether that is a good or bad thing... doesn't matter.. that's just  the way it is.  I can no more change what has happened in my life than I can leap tall buildings in a single bound. ...and honestly.. it's no ones business what we've been through..  We don't have to justify who we are.. to anyone but ourselves. For some reason most people believe that they are defined by what others think of them.. but it's only what we think of ourselves that accounts for anything.  Sometimes we want to believe that there are others we can count on.. trust in.. not to lie to us.. but that's a rarity.  I've been lied to so many times that I almost always assume the worst in people.  To overcome that would take the patience of a saint... something I don't know if I can find.

We choose what we want in our lives.. well.. not exactly what comes into our lives.. but what we choose to keep in our lives. So we only have ourselves to blame for the baggage we carry....  The baggage sometimes takes a long time to get rid of.. and at times.. it might seem that it is overwhelming.. or we can't unload it all.. but it's still our choice...  We can choose to be weighted down.. or we can walk forward.. knowing that we won't be literally be killed by any non-physical actions taken against us... I know they say what doesn't kill you makes you stronger... but I think at times.. we just get worn down to the point where it's difficult to go on. ...over time we have two choices.. we can give up.. or we can keep going forward.. I really don't enjoy the idea of giving up.. but all I can do is take a step... and keep hoping that when life punches me in the teeth.. I have good dental insurance.  I currently have coverage.