I Can Be Wrong.

Kinda think I'm starting to get things together... even with the occasional waffling on what I'm going to end up doing.. I still am keeping a positive mental outlook.. or at least trying.  One thing that has always eluded me.. why do people feel it is in their best interest to bring up things over and over... I know I have that tendency to do that.. and in the past... I might have said a comment here or there to get my feelings known.. but I try to not verbally attack anyone directly... unless I feel they have directed a verbal attack on me.. Once I do that, I've lost control. For someone to be able to cause me to lose control.. means that I really care a lot about what they say....  and for the most part.. I've learned to just let most comments just pass. I am guilty of pushing other people's buttons on occasions.. and I know that other people have said or did things.. just to push mine... well.. this remote is out of batteries.. I won't let other people control my actions or cause issues. I do comment about things in this blog.. and anything I say here.. well.. it's what's in my head.. doesn't mean it's accurate.. but it's not a fabrication.. it's things as I see them. I already know I can be a bastard when it comes to my comments. It is my opinion.. my outlook.. this blog is about me.. I will be selfish here.. it's the primary purpose for it. I've done things that I'm not so keen to owning up to.. but I will if someone asks.. I have the tendency to act all high and mighty, but I'm just like everyone else.. I make my share of mistakes.. I do know that.  I actually understand that people do things they don't mean to do.. but even still we all have to deal with the outcome of the decisions we make.. the choices we put forth go to help shape our live.  Trying to live thinking about how things should have been done differently will not change anything. If something bothers you about what you've done.. or haven't done.. then own up to it... or try to change it.. The best a person can do is apologize.. sincerely.  ..and I've tried to do that for the times I've been wrong.

Bath was refreshing again this morning... sometimes just a little soak in the tub gets my mind working in all other directions.  I look forward to the time when maybe the bathtub can be just a bit more crowded.. and no.. I'm not talking about me gaining weight.. I'm actually pretty stabilized as far as weight is concerned.. and I'm happy with where I am.  still need to tone up a little bit... but I'm working on it slowly and surely. My hair is starting to grow back.. about 1/2 inch long now.. it's been 2 weeks since I stopped shaving my head.  I think my hair tends to grow quickly... all the protein, I suppose... but I'm happy with how I look.. especially less self conscious now that my redness has all but disappeared from my penis... Sometimes I wonder how it will feel to actually have sex again.. all circumcised... but it'll happen when it does.  I have a positive outlook on as much as I possibly can.. even if I still think the idea of relationships is only a painful experience waiting to happen.  I think maybe we all have too many expectations of what things could be.. and without thinking we build ourselves up to expect much more than it is.. and when we are disappointed, we have no one to blame but ourselves.  Well.. I'm not like that for the most part... I have always been aware beforehand of myself.. and of other... I guess that's why it bothers me so much to be surprised when I learn things are so much different... yes.. it does happen occasionally.. I can be wrong.