I Just Need To Use It.

I can trace back most mistakes in my life... to making spur of the moment.... or rash decisions.. then I develop this attitude that I just want to live day to day and not worry about things... I don't think that works.. I feel like I will end up making more mistakes... because of past experience.  If there is one thing about humans.. we should learn.. and learning involves using our brain to remember past thoughts.. or ideas.  So when I say I want to forget the past... and not live in it... that's not entirely accurate. Yes.. the past does have some control over me... as does it over everyone else... We learn.. we grow.. we develop certain attitudes based on what we know.. what we have seen.. and heard.. we were given 5 senses for a reason.. These are collectors of information.. that feed sensations into our brain... it's our brain that learns to interpret what we see... or hear.. or smell.. or taste.. or touch... To forget all of that... it's just not possible... we remember things.. whether something feels bad.. or hurtful... or whether we get pleasure from something.  Our mind sometimes takes a little longer in reasoning things out.  Maybe as we get older.. we think a little slower.. because our mind has so much information to process. I look back at ever mistake I made.. and most of them were due to a rash decision.. I sometimes don't take the time to think things through.. even if I know what possible outcomes there are.. and in most cases.. they might be probable outcomes.. I just choose not to look at them.  That might be because there is a driving force that wants to do certain things.. But all in all.. I might not have the most exciting life.. but I am still living. I have to consider all my options in most of the choices I make.... otherwise.. the existence I lie before myself will be riddled with irritations.. perhaps pain and suffering.. and I will not be inclined to live it. I know I have a brain.. I just need to use it.