Things Are Never Simple

Sitting in a waiting room again... I'm not fond of waiting.. I hate being rushed also, so I've adapted to being a bit early... and having to wait.  I was rushed yesterday when I blogged... I felt like I wanted to put something down..  but it bothered me to stop it short like that.  I don't even remember now what all I wanted to say...

I have all these opinions... and that's just what they are... my opinions. I have certain beliefs that rarely change... I feel that people can accept that.. or go away... I'm a realist. I am done getting caught up in the fantasy. I know I step on toes from time to time.. but I can't help that.  The problem with most relationships is that someone says something they think the other person wants to hear... just to avoid conflict... or to get them to like them more.  The problem then becomes.. does a person adjust their  attitude?  ...or is it necessary to come clean at some point and say it was a lie. If someone is completely honest in the first place, this doesn't become an issue.  I am certain in a lot of cases, people will even lie to themselves so they can face the present ...but the future will be all that much worse. I tend to be direct in a lot that I say, and some might even think I am mad at the world or something.  I get saddened at the state of things from time to time... but I always adjust... I keep myself where I am now.. and it is much easier to adjust.  I can't be chasing pipe dreams and believing in fairy tales..  when reality hits, it takes its toll. I have leaned to believe in myself... I am good for me.. and I'm learning not to depend on anyone else.. I think most people have a problem with this.  When you invite someone into your life.. you are accepting them... and all the issues you might have to deal with... and everyone has issues.. whether it be kids... ex's... pets.. in-laws.. jobs.. or lack of employment... it all gets pushed together and creates more and more conflict.. whether it is meant to or not... then from conflict, comes drama.. so, no matter how we seek to make our lives easier by inviting people to be close, things are never simple.

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