All It Will Ever Be

Sometimes I feel like it's all a lie.. why even search for the truth... I mean.. we like to believe whatever we want to believe.. and most of us are to the point that we aren't going to change our opinions... I have gotten to the point where I just treat everyone like they're probably lying to me.. but maybe they don't know they're lying.. Most people end up lying to themselves anyway... it's when they come to that realization that the shit hits the fan.... then they wind up saying.. it's not your fault.. when deep inside they really believe it is your fault... and truth be told.. it's everyone's fault.. all people involved in anything play a role in the outcome of bad events.  We like to think we're the victim.. but in reality.. none of us are the victim.. we just set ourselves up for the crash and burn situations.. we close our minds to the reality of the situation.. and choose to believe what we want... because it is our fantasy.. it's something that we hope for.. or wish for... and perhaps wishes do come true.. or at least that's what we like to think... but reality is much harsher than that... sooner or later we'll get slapped in the face with it.. and then we'll have to deal with the fallout of the catastrophic event that occurs as a result.  I see people all the time who are adjusting to the reality of things... but in their mind.. they still hold hope... maybe because that's the way they can cope with the current situations... but even still.. it leads to more bumps and bruises on the rollercoaster of life. I have determined that in my life.. I have to look at what is real.. I lost hope a long time ago... now I just deal with things that are... and not things as I want to see them. If something good happens that is unexpected... great.. if not.. then I have already attuned myself to that mode of thinking.. For most people.. life is a series of ups and downs.. and they choose to wonder why they are so hurt when the downs come... why don't they wonder why they are happy when they are up?? It is a never-ending cycle.. if you let yourself hold onto hope.. and the belief in something happy just around the bend.. you eventually hit the brick wall when you turn the corner and run into it... discovering there is nothing happy... just more of the same.. and that's all it will ever be..

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  1. ScooberTinaSeptember 3, 2012 at 8:44 AM

    What about that moment when you come around the corner and there is something there for a change. we don't always stub our noses in that brick wall. at some point.. we will find something other than that around the corner.. and that is that single ray of hope that I keep a strong grip on.. sure today, there may be that stinking wall.. but tomorrow... who knows what magnificent thing may be in it's place...

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    1. SpecialKSeptember 3, 2012 at 9:07 AM

      ...and if you choose to believe that... go ahead... I, for one am going to keep expecting a brick wall there... I'm tired of stubbing my nose..

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