I Won't Change.

Not sure that I really wanted to blog.. but I figured I would start typing and see what comes out.  There's not really much on my mind right now... as I seem to have been continuing in my rut in life... I don't need to worry about things until they come to pass. I believe that people spend too much time worrying.  I also believe that people spend too much time hiding from life in general.  We all have ways of coping with the stresses of life.. and most of us retreat into one thing or another...  Sometimes we have people in our life that we use to deal with our inadequate environment.  We become complacent in being sedimentary.... not moving forward  or living in the past... where we don't have to put forth any effort. I think maybe we don't have the confidence in ourselves to do the things we wish to do... and most of our life is spent cowering from who we wish to be... so we live out our lives doing what we have to do to get through it... to catch brief glimpses of things we wish to be true... but seldom having the strength to follow through with what is necessary to get there.  I've always said that anyone can do anything they wish to do.. if they're willing to put forth the effort... I still believe that.. It's just that the effort that keeps us from living out to our full potential.  We aren't willing to do what we must.. to make our lives exactly what we want.

I'm one of those types of people... that try to do the best I can... to help out others.. and to take responsibility for the things that happen.. but there are many things that are beyond any help I can give... I've learned that lesson. I cannot take responsibility for the issues that I have nothing to do with.  I can only do what I can for those that choose to remain a part of my life.. but even still most end up going their own way.. and they have to realize that they cannot change the way things are. I know that I prattle on with a sense of wisdom that I really don't have at times... but I have a tendency to see things the way they are... most of the time.. it's too late to try to avoid issues.. but that's because I generally believe in people.. and what they say to me.. I've found that isn't always the case. People tend to do whatever makes them happy.. and most can say anything to live in the moment... but I have never been that way... I say what is truly in my mind and on my heart... and I am happy with who I am.. even if it hurts sometime..  But I won't change.