I'll Just Live With It.
Have you ever wondered why there are so many useless things in this world? I remember when I had my gall bladder removed.... thinking... wait.. don't I need that? ...and it does aid in digestion... but I function just fine without it.. same with appendix.. or tonsils... people have them removed all the time.. and go forth with a fruitful life without much adjustment at all. I spoke yesterday of my "bucket list" ... this is an ever changing list.. I suppose since my thoughts and attitudes change somewhat.. but there are still things on it that I truly would love to accomplish... the cruise.. is number one.. deep sea fishing would be up there... visiting or staying overnight in a castle.. there are many more items on my list.. but I'm hoping just to accomplish a few of them.... when I was younger.. a threesome was actually on my list.. but my attitude has changed to the point where I would no longer consider it... I would like to see the pacific ocean at some point.. the grand canyon.. go to mexico.. even if just for a few minutes... there's so much in my life that I'd love to do.. but the means to do so may never present itself... am I just setting myself up for disappointment.. or regret in later years? I think it's healthy to have dreams and aspirations.. we just need to make certain the goals we set for ourselves are kept in perspective..
I have recently had a craving to drive to Nashville.. just to eat lunch at a Whole Foods Market... each market is different.. and some have cafes... bar-b-que places.. delis... a wide variety of eating establishments inside the store itself.. the one in Nashville is not nearly as nice as another I've been in.. but it has its perks... I am thinking about going to Louisville to check that one out.. I'll have to find it. There are so many places I see on TV.. especially on Man vs Food ...on the food network.. I don't watch much TV at all.. but I do get an opportunity to see some of these shows on occasion. I don't want my life to be about food though... just like it shouldn't be comprised of any one thing... A wide variety is one of the keys to not setting yourself into a rut... my life is still somewhat stagnant.. just because I am here... and not sure when that will change yet. I listen to the birds outside chirping.. part of me envies them... because they can go where they want to go.. and do what they want to do... I know that years ago.. I signed up for being tethered ...but I think at the time, I was thinking there would be someone in my life to share life as an adventure... but the adventure never began... it was slowly becoming a prison from the first year or two.. that's what I look on it now.. there is so much that I cannot do... but I'm not dead yet... so there is still hope.. things will eventually change and life will grow to have some meaning once more.. not just going through the motions to make it each day to the next.
I have continued my studying... not sure if I will get all done that I want.. I sometimes find it a bit more difficult to focus than when I was younger... but I am doing okay. I am thinking I might actually go to work for awhile today... as I have a presentation to give next week.. and I've gotten approval to work if I want to. Sometimes.. I just think it's about having a freedom of choice... we all like to feel we are in control of where we are going... and what we're doing.. I've lost much of that control... but I will seek to regain what control I can in my life.. and what I can't.. I'll just live with it.
I have recently had a craving to drive to Nashville.. just to eat lunch at a Whole Foods Market... each market is different.. and some have cafes... bar-b-que places.. delis... a wide variety of eating establishments inside the store itself.. the one in Nashville is not nearly as nice as another I've been in.. but it has its perks... I am thinking about going to Louisville to check that one out.. I'll have to find it. There are so many places I see on TV.. especially on Man vs Food ...on the food network.. I don't watch much TV at all.. but I do get an opportunity to see some of these shows on occasion. I don't want my life to be about food though... just like it shouldn't be comprised of any one thing... A wide variety is one of the keys to not setting yourself into a rut... my life is still somewhat stagnant.. just because I am here... and not sure when that will change yet. I listen to the birds outside chirping.. part of me envies them... because they can go where they want to go.. and do what they want to do... I know that years ago.. I signed up for being tethered ...but I think at the time, I was thinking there would be someone in my life to share life as an adventure... but the adventure never began... it was slowly becoming a prison from the first year or two.. that's what I look on it now.. there is so much that I cannot do... but I'm not dead yet... so there is still hope.. things will eventually change and life will grow to have some meaning once more.. not just going through the motions to make it each day to the next.
I have continued my studying... not sure if I will get all done that I want.. I sometimes find it a bit more difficult to focus than when I was younger... but I am doing okay. I am thinking I might actually go to work for awhile today... as I have a presentation to give next week.. and I've gotten approval to work if I want to. Sometimes.. I just think it's about having a freedom of choice... we all like to feel we are in control of where we are going... and what we're doing.. I've lost much of that control... but I will seek to regain what control I can in my life.. and what I can't.. I'll just live with it.
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