It's All That Is Certain.
I have to say I am not thankful enough... I tend to look upon the negative things in my life... and overlook the positive.... doesn't matter that the amount of negative outnumbers the positive.. it's just something there to bring me down.. and I won't let that happen. I tend to gravitate toward the path of least resistance.. sort of like electricity ;) ....but I know I have too many good qualities to let life get me down ....at least for very long. We all tend to work toward goals.. and we all have to overcome the trials and tribulations of life... some of us lose sight of what we truly want. I have the ability to make changes in my life... if not major ones at the moment, then at least a few things to make it a bit better. I need to stop wasting my life and actually get on with it... to do more constructive things than I've been doing. I can't complain about the way things are if I don't take an active part to change what I can. As much as I hate to admit it... part of me still lives in the past... I let events from my past condemn me to a bleak future. It's my fault that I do that... I am a good person, I know that. I have remarkable potential to make positive things happen.. and I'm going to do so.
I had a long day yesterday... I have a student who talks about wanting to hurt himself... it's mostly harmless as he just sits and hits himself on occasion... but not hard enough to be damaging... but yesterday he talked about how his feelings have grown stronger.. and he had never thought about burning himself.. or cutting himself before... and now he is... I had to spend much of the day going through counselors and psychologists with him... they seem to think all is okay now.. but I have my doubts... still I'm not as skilled as they are... and I am hoping to just get him through the program.. as they elected to keep him there for the time being... He will remain in my classroom.. although I'm certain that will end up distracting me on many occasions until he is ready to leave. I think that many people can relate to want to do something that wouldn't be considered normal thought.. I have done so in the past.. but never would I act on such blatantly unacceptable thoughts. It is called maturity... stupid actions lead to more issues and problems in our lives.. Part of me thinks that sometimes we act out of the need for attention.... sort of like what children do... I'm sure I've done the same thing... we never change our basic thought patterns.. we just learn that those thoughts are unacceptable.. and will cause more harm in our lives than good. We all seek attention.. approval.... love, even. Sometimes people get things so confused though... you can't make anyone else love you.... just as you cannot stop loving someone. You only can adjust and deal with the way life is. I don't pretend to understand a whole lot.. my words here are just a reflection of my thoughts on various subjects. By no means am I an expert on life.. or love.. but I do know what I think and what I feel.. too many people in this world still haven't reached that level.. they know that they feel something... and have various thoughts about it.. but most tend to associate it with something that makes them feel comfortable... sometimes we have to step outside our comfort zone.. and just realize that just because we say something is a certain way.. doesn't make it so. All we can do is try to be happy with what is. It's all that is certain.
I had a long day yesterday... I have a student who talks about wanting to hurt himself... it's mostly harmless as he just sits and hits himself on occasion... but not hard enough to be damaging... but yesterday he talked about how his feelings have grown stronger.. and he had never thought about burning himself.. or cutting himself before... and now he is... I had to spend much of the day going through counselors and psychologists with him... they seem to think all is okay now.. but I have my doubts... still I'm not as skilled as they are... and I am hoping to just get him through the program.. as they elected to keep him there for the time being... He will remain in my classroom.. although I'm certain that will end up distracting me on many occasions until he is ready to leave. I think that many people can relate to want to do something that wouldn't be considered normal thought.. I have done so in the past.. but never would I act on such blatantly unacceptable thoughts. It is called maturity... stupid actions lead to more issues and problems in our lives.. Part of me thinks that sometimes we act out of the need for attention.... sort of like what children do... I'm sure I've done the same thing... we never change our basic thought patterns.. we just learn that those thoughts are unacceptable.. and will cause more harm in our lives than good. We all seek attention.. approval.... love, even. Sometimes people get things so confused though... you can't make anyone else love you.... just as you cannot stop loving someone. You only can adjust and deal with the way life is. I don't pretend to understand a whole lot.. my words here are just a reflection of my thoughts on various subjects. By no means am I an expert on life.. or love.. but I do know what I think and what I feel.. too many people in this world still haven't reached that level.. they know that they feel something... and have various thoughts about it.. but most tend to associate it with something that makes them feel comfortable... sometimes we have to step outside our comfort zone.. and just realize that just because we say something is a certain way.. doesn't make it so. All we can do is try to be happy with what is. It's all that is certain.
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