Try To Be You.

I got to thinking recently.. just because I erase people off my yahoo list.. does not take me off theirs.. I sometimes wonder who still sits there and watches me pop on and off.. but for the most part.. it doesn't really matter.. what's funny is I'm sure there are still people with such a bored life that they watch my light come on .. and go off.. and have nothing better to do.  What does it matter if I'm on your list or not.. I just thought it was an interesting observation... My list has narrowed down to less than half a dozen people.. and most of them are infrequent chats.. and mainly just in passing... I don't even know who all reads my blog anymore... but I'm sure some do.. as the bottom number keeps changing... I just wonder why?  People leave my life for a reason.. then go.. if a person doesn't wish to be my friend.. I don't have a problem with that.  Those who are still in my life.. are here because they want to be.. they don't observe.. they actually are an active participant as a friend. Kinda makes you wonder who all they sit and spy on.. or if their life really depends so much on others as to need to know what is going on.. It's sort of pathetic.. I enjoy the people I can call friends.. making an effort to keep up with what's going on with me.. so there is a valid reason why they still read.. and that might be all that reads anymore... I don't really know.. but there are so few people I chat with that the numbers don't add up.  I know I'm not that interesting of a person.. or do people just want to see if drama will unfold in my life... well I have news.. if that's why you're here.. to watch the drama.. more than likely you won't see it.. as you were probably the cause of drama in my life in the first place.  I've done things I shouldn't have.. and I've tried to apologize for all the bad things I've done... but I've moved on to a better place... not stuck in the past.. those people who are my friend.. understand what I'm saying.. those that just want to observe.. good luck.. and hopefully someday you'll find a better purpose in your life.. than just watching mine. Try to be you..

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