I Keep Hitting Potholes.

Ever wonder what's going to happen next?  ...that sometimes we think we have a handle on things.. and have it all figured out.. then BAM! That speeding truck of Fate comes from nowhere and knocks us flat on our asses. I have people in my life that are trying to reach out to .. help me?  ...but I don't really need help.  I'm not.. depressed.. not anymore.. I accept life at face value... which is just not quite as valuable as I once thought... I mean.. we live... we do stuff.. we die... what the "stuff" entails.. is entirely up to us. We all like to be happy... and do what is meaningful.. but when it comes down to it.. what actually is meaningful?  We have to set our certain code of standards... and live up to them.. but just because one's set of standards isn't as high as another's... doesn't make that person a bad person.. just different. We seem to all pass judgement on people based on our "higher" standards.. I am very guilty of that.. It doesn't mean that I am going to change my standards for anyone.. it just means that I need to be more tolerant.. as long as that person doesn't affect my life. I find myself taking a harder look at those people I call shallow.. or superficial.. at least they're semi-happy.. doing what they want.. my only problem is the deception that occurs in life.. not necessarily intentional deception.. I will always have a severe problem with that.. but I have to learn to deal with the unintentional facade that permeates the online world.. I have decided that I can no longer take anyone at face value.. I even have doubts about my intentions sometimes.. which is why I'm thinking so much lately.. about who I am.. about what I want.. I don't want to deceive anyone into thinking something about me.. that isn't true.. even by accident.. I've been guilty of that in the past.. I probably will be in the future.. but if I do that.. I hope to make it as unintentional as possible.. This road I'm travelling is a bumpy one.. I keep learning how difficult the bumps can be to maneuver around.. Unfortunately I keep hitting potholes.

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