It Is Getting More And More Difficult

It is 4:30 am here... I'm in one of the most amazing cities I've ever been in... the room I am staying in is the size of a small apartment... when I walked in... the lights came on... the curtains opened to a spectacular view.. and everything is controlled by a remote...either on the large tv.. or by the tablet by the king size heavenly bed.. I won't say the bed was orgasmic... but I honestly got my first erection in weeks... just lying in it the first time... just a sensory overload.. hasn't happened since. The bathroom is three divisions.. all separated by glass doors... the toilet... the double sink area.. and the tub area... you can fit 2 people into it easily ...I'm pretty sure of that, anyway. You step out of the tub into a shower area... and I sort of think the water is mineral water.. 

The conference has taken up most of my time..  and I was jet lagged the first night... and crashed right after the meeting let out. I have met the authors of my text books..  and even have their contact info... was told to contact them personally if I had any questions. I have absorbed so much info... so my brain has kept busy.  I have been provided wonderful breakfasts and lunches at the conference... I had dinner last night at a place called "The Buffet" ...this place was....AMAZING ...and all the prime rib... lobster... wine... I could consume... I stopped by the casinos BEFORE the wine... I played blackjack at $25 a hand... got blackjack the first time... then.. started building from that ...I was up $400... before ending with.$100 loss... which was my limit... so I walked away... I took $5 to the slot machines and was up quite a bit..  before starting to lose there too.. so.. I ended there up $100... so I broke even.

....the hotel has 4000 rooms.. and is a small city in itself... the conference area is 3 million square feet.. and there are shops and clubs everywhere.... I have no need to leave the hotel... but as I walk along... I see something that astounds me at each turn... after I spot it... I look around... to share my discovery...with someone... but no one is there... and I feel more alone than ever... I just walked back to my room through labyrinth of elevators and corridors ...and called it a night around 9 pm locally.. It's a breathtaking weekend... but unfortunately... I'm all out of breath already... I am trying to enjoy myself... but it is getting more and more difficult. 


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