Get A Clue.
I'm a bit tired... I've had a long, exhausting day. But I woke up in a great mood... spectacular dreams. First time in a long time that they've been so ...vivid.. but it was nice.. now .. it's over... so is most of my pleasant moments... Dad comes tomorrow.. so I might get to blog some in the next 2 - 3 weeks.. but not sure how much... I really don't have a moment to myself when he's around.. except for the 3 or 4 minutes I can go to the bathroom before he knocks on the door to check if I'm okay. Yeah... let's just suffice it to say that he is going to come in.. and try to take over my moving plans.. luckily a lot of it is already in place. I'll deal... I always do. I need to get my ass in gear and pack as much as I can before he gets here.. I have plenty of boxes... I don't need him going through all my stuff anyway.... I have a vibrator in the drawer I bought for my last girlfriend... and never threw it away... seems a shame since it was so expensive, but I definitely won't ever be using it again.. I should let him find that.. and really wonder! I am not certain he would even say anything... although I can see him asking if I'm seeing someone... although he would already know the answer to that.
My neighbor called and asked if I wanted dinner, but I'm a bit too tired to eat.. and besides... I really don't want her coming over and stinking up my living room with her cigarettes... she's a nice enough person, really great and dependable for the most part... but I don't want to ever give her the idea that I might be interested in her... smoking to me is a deal breaker... and I won't ever change my mind about that. I spent too much time around cigarettes when I was growing up... but finally my dad stopped smoking cold turkey... well... cigarettes, anyway.. he never smoked turkey. I guess there are just certain things in my mind where I have a repulsion.. cigarettes are one of those.. drugs.. are another.. doesn't mean my friends can't do it.. but I'm never getting caught up in it...
I think it's a music kind of night... lie on my couch.. relax... and just listen ... it'll be even better once it gets dark.. I love the dark... no light whatsoever... forces you to use your other senses... it makes me aware of things I don't usually notice before. There's so much we see that tricks us into believing something else anyway... our eyes are an avenue to be fooled... That's how magicians are so adept at fooling people.. they believe what they see and they aren't quick enough to notice what's happening outside their field of vision. We all have the capability of being fooled by what we think we know... but it's always best to keep an open mind on all things.. I loved the movie "Now You See Me" ...I actually liked the second one... but not near as much as the first one... I think maybe we are all okay with being naïve and not knowing what's going on occasion... it takes the magic out of it... same way with life... I believe there are some that just enjoy going along without a clue.. Not me... I like to know what's going on... I've been blindsided enough that it's important I have that disclosure... it helps me fight my cynicism.. If you think you'll be okay without knowing what's going on.. I only have 3 words... Get A Clue.
My neighbor called and asked if I wanted dinner, but I'm a bit too tired to eat.. and besides... I really don't want her coming over and stinking up my living room with her cigarettes... she's a nice enough person, really great and dependable for the most part... but I don't want to ever give her the idea that I might be interested in her... smoking to me is a deal breaker... and I won't ever change my mind about that. I spent too much time around cigarettes when I was growing up... but finally my dad stopped smoking cold turkey... well... cigarettes, anyway.. he never smoked turkey. I guess there are just certain things in my mind where I have a repulsion.. cigarettes are one of those.. drugs.. are another.. doesn't mean my friends can't do it.. but I'm never getting caught up in it...
I think it's a music kind of night... lie on my couch.. relax... and just listen ... it'll be even better once it gets dark.. I love the dark... no light whatsoever... forces you to use your other senses... it makes me aware of things I don't usually notice before. There's so much we see that tricks us into believing something else anyway... our eyes are an avenue to be fooled... That's how magicians are so adept at fooling people.. they believe what they see and they aren't quick enough to notice what's happening outside their field of vision. We all have the capability of being fooled by what we think we know... but it's always best to keep an open mind on all things.. I loved the movie "Now You See Me" ...I actually liked the second one... but not near as much as the first one... I think maybe we are all okay with being naïve and not knowing what's going on occasion... it takes the magic out of it... same way with life... I believe there are some that just enjoy going along without a clue.. Not me... I like to know what's going on... I've been blindsided enough that it's important I have that disclosure... it helps me fight my cynicism.. If you think you'll be okay without knowing what's going on.. I only have 3 words... Get A Clue.
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