A Bit Too Old To Change.

I am a bit tired... but better rested now what I have been. It seems like there is just so much to do... My dreams are plagued with weird crap... I was riding a tricycle to get everywhere I needed to go... and not an adult sized one... the entire time, I had my dad calling me to try to find me... Look at the symbolism on that one.. it just screams obvious issues.. But Dad is Dad.. and that's all he ever will be. I've made every attempt to make changes to the way we interact.. it's not happening.

I am a strong believer that each person has a duty... not to fellow man... or to country... I believe that everyone has a duty to themselves.. to continue to try to improve their his/her life as best they can. I think many people get too caught up in the moment... and send themselves spiraling down a rabbit hole where they can't escape... I might have a bleak outlook on my future at times... but that still doesn't stop me from making an effort when it comes to doing the things I need to do in order to keep my life straight.  Life doesn't come with an instruction manual... and we're all going to make mistakes... but each day is a new one... The past is something we leave behind.. learn from.. and move on.
I had dinner with a friend of mine yesterday... He told me something I've begun to see... that the older you get... the faster life goes by.  I agree with that... but sometimes things go by so quickly that we miss out.  It really doesn't matter though, because missing out on something isn't the worst thing in the world... I'm not really in a hurry to finish out my final days here... I really don't even relish the thought of getting old, but that's not under my control. There is a thought process in place in my brain that I make minor changes to as I grow and learn more... but for the most part.. I'm just a bit too old to change. 

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