I Have It Made.

D-Day.. D being for Dad... he's supposed to be here this afternoon when I get off work. I don't know why I get so worked up over having him here... I just need to chill a bit.. and just ride it out.. I found out yesterday that I'm not going to be able to use my students to help me move... so I guess I'll have to figure something else out.. I'm certain something will present itself.... but I just need to do my part and finish packing... well.. I like doing my part.. it keeps me happy. I was in a conversation about how I like to be helpful... and even though it was just a bit of tongue-in-cheek, I really think that's a lot of what I am about.  I seriously like to help people.  My job should be a major indicator of that. I chose a field where I could help people go from a drain on the economy to become a working taxpayer and productive member of society.... It helps them.. helps the world in general... sure, it's not as glamorous a life as my sisters', they are directly responsible for immediately helping those in need. Still I do what I can to get some satisfaction out of life.  Sometimes, though, my job sorta pisses me off... I'm being piled upon and can't get done all the things I need to do... and right now... they are offering no overtime to anyone.  I found out our budget was cut over $600,000 just on my center... and unless we find those cuts... we might be looking at rolling furloughs. I just bought a house... I really have a problem with being out of work without pay for 2 weeks.. we can't even use our annual leave during that time..  If it does happen, I hope it is put off at least until February.  I just see major issues with the whole thing.. including the fact that I might not get my usual bonus this year.. I'm certain again.. something will present itself.. The positive thing is that the fire team thing is happening in January so that has almost unlimited funding and can be a good source of extra money for me when it comes around.
Today the students are travelling home for the long weekend... I will be off tomorrow.. and probably all of next week.. I haven't submitted the time off form, because I've been so busy... but I've got to get a few things squared away before I can take off Thursday and Friday.. if that doesn't happen, I might be working them. I am looking forward to the time off.. but it would be much better to have a few things done so I can enjoy this time... Unfortunately, I am going to be using most of the time to work on my personal stuff. We'll see how that goes..
I was thinking about how things happen in our lives... and looking back (yeah, I know... the past again)  ...I think on many occasions I have a tendency to over-react a bit... the problem is that I can't turn my brain off.. and sometimes it's my worst enemy.  I am pretty lucky that I have adjusted as well as I have... I just need to be a bit less focused on sabotaging my life and more focused on trying to figure out exactly where I'm headed... I'm looking forward to making the changes I'm currently undergoing... but with the job stress... my Dad.. the new house... getting moved.. budgeting... not seeing my daughters... this upcoming colonoscopy next week... and just not getting any kind of active social life... I figure when they check my blood pressure tomorrow.. it'll be through the roof... I need to take up meditation.. or yoga.. something that might help. Still if I keep in my mind of how lucky I am compared to some... I have it made.