I Will Enjoy Floating.

Dad is coming...  (I just said that in my best Jon Snow voice.)  It's supposed to sound ominous... in all actuality it is...  I dread the visit.. but I'm going to try to make the best of it... I can put up with it for a short time... Now if you ask me how it's going about a week from now.. I'll probably spit at you.. No... I don't spit at people, but I might appear irked. It's just the way I am... certain things are a part of life... and I deal with it.. it's not exactly the most ideal arrangement, but it works.. and I'm able to keep my sanity in tact.. I am pretty certain that a lot of what I write would have someone questioning whether my sanity was, in fact.. in tact.. I guess if I was insane... I might think I was still sane, so to answer that question... I really haven't a clue. But I seem to be able to sleep a little better... at least last night... and I don't have to worry all the time... I think we all spend too much time worrying anyway.  Yes.. I get concerned about things... and perhaps I put too much effort of thought into a lot of stuff that I really shouldn't worry about at all.. Things have a way of taking care of themselves.. and to worry about it... well.. that's what will drive you insane... I'm a bit more calmed after having a particularly stressful day at work... but I'm seriously covered up... I guess I'm more calm, because I really don't have time to let my mind wander... I can't think of anything besides the tasks at hand.. and it occupies my mind in a more constructive way... sorta like I said I'd do with the packing... which I'm wayyyyyyyyy behind on... oh well.. I have over a month left.. so.. I won't worry about it at this point.. I'll think about it when I get a chance to escape all the other things happening in my life... I know at some point things will subside... and I'll get a chance to gather my faculties..

I talk about how difficult things are.. but they're not all that difficult.. frustrating at times perhaps.. but not that difficult... It's much easier when I don't take the time to think about things at all.. I know I just said that.. but it's true... It's difficult to keep my mind from thinking.. as I'm quite the thinker.. the planner.. and I tend to want to have control over my life... but perhaps... it's just time to drift a bit.. and let the current take me where it wants to... I will enjoy floating.

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